Echoes of Why

Embracing the Process!

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Embracing The Process!
By Bryan de Flores

The (not-always) graceful art of mental, emotional, physical and spiritual release.

Do you remember the first spiritual revelations you experienced when you became aware of multidimensional frequencies and other intelligences? The joy and elation that accompanied these insights finally allowed you to be free of all earthly constraints and soar to the heavens.



Sometimes few and far between, you continue to experience these ah-ah’s but have difficulty integrating them into your busy life. You often feel frustrated, confused and alone, not understanding that you are inches away from making a quantum leap in consciousness, into the 5th dimension of time and space.




The Mystery School of Life
How long is this going to take?



As we begin our spiritual path, one of the first things we should realize is how toxic we have become. We all have negative thoughts and unbalanced emotions within us that often manifest in ways which are very uncomfortable.


We also have subconscious sabotage programs and coping mechanisms working against us, prohibiting us from living our dreams. We have created and often been imprinted with these mechanisms to help us deal with the traumas and dramas in our lives.




However, in order to make our Ascension, these things will need to be looked at and dealt with. Unfortunately, when many people are confronted with their own issues they just don’t want to go there! They lash out, suppress or run pretending that everything is OK and fly up into the rafters of denial, never to be seen again.



The ancient Mystery Schools were set up in part to assist the participants in becoming conscious of, understanding and releasing the ties that bound them to the lower levels of the Earth plane.


This included the understanding that all illness and disease is caused by mental and emotional stress. It was understood that these imbalances would eventually begin to impact the health of the physical body, mind and spirit.


Releasing these imprints in a balanced, positive way was crucial to the longevity of the body, the stability of the emotions and the integrity of one’s thoughts. This process took many years until the initiate achieved mastery and completion.



In this modern age, many people have awakened to spirit and are now eager to move forward along the path. However, as well as experiencing great joy, one will encounter challenges, which will trigger those unprocessed emotions and thought forms.



One misconception is that it is an endless process and this could not be further from the truth. You are currently in the process of returning your body and consciousness to its original pattern of perfection. Therefore all genetic and energy frequencies within you are resetting themselves, permanently.



Imagine never feeling anger, stress, depression etc. for the rest of your life! Negative emotions have been important tools for learning about ourselves, but that time is finished. We are now making a quantum shift into a reality that does not utilize negativity as a tool for growth.



So kiss those negative emotions goodbye, thank them and let’s move on. It is so important to be open to the idea that there are some things within you that will need to be acknowledged and addressed. Each time you properly process these imbalances they will be gone forever.



If you are open and not in denial when your stuff is triggered, the process will be easier. If you are in denial, challenging and sometimes painful experiences will continue to manifest in order for you to clear these issues. Remember, everything that has been suppressed must come up to the surface to be dealt with!



Our wonderful home Earth is also going through the process of returning to its original paradise state of being. All the current global challenges and issues we see manifesting around us are but the last remaining distorted planetary imprints which are just now coming up to the surface to be cleared.



In a few years this process will be completed, the transformation will be swift and all shall be changed in the twinkling of an eye! Bottom Line: If you initiate the procedure consciously, spirit will not have to manifest an external experience in order for you to clear it! And when you are confronted with your own issues, don’t feel bad or guilty, just own up to it and move on!




The Tyranny of the Mind
data data data data data data data data data data


There are many techniques and procedures available to assist us in working through our own issues. Lengthy processes are a thing of the past in most cases.


Question: Wouldn’t you rather shift a thought form or emotion in 3 minutes rather than have it linger for 5 years?



The energy is moving too quickly now and many of the old slower analytical
methods are no longer working. Energetic processes work more quickly to re-pattern our thoughts and emotions, as they work from the soul
level.



They override the mental confusion and human personality and go directly to the Higher Self for instruction. The key to this process is powerful, positive intention! Sometimes this type of process cannot be explained it just needs to be experienced and trusted!



Energy processes work by the Universal principal of homeopathy: When you change the energy (vibrational patterns), you change the manifestation of the matter. Many processes are so mentally/intellect or etherically oriented they do not fully integrate into the consciousness.

Also, some people who are intellectually oriented tend to process only in the mental body. I have noticed this in many of my classes. People will say that they have already cleared a particular issue, but it is still there, bigger than life!


Yes, maybe they did process it mentally but did not fully integrate it into their emotional body and energy field. Also, there may be many layers of the issue that can only be cleared through full emotional integration.


If a procedure relies too heavily on mental data rather than personal connection and integrated intuitive understanding, you are more than likely going to walk away with a heavily processing mental body and very little integration. Besides, all data does is satisfy the lower mental body and too much data is often very confusing and will block intuitive channels.


When you are attending, a class be aware there are many important energy transmissions being given on multiple levels and the data or script being offered is probably the lease important. Oftentimes you integrate teachings and healing energy better when the analytical mind is bypassed. As a teacher, I always tell people beforehand that not everything that is happening can or will be explained.



After all, one cannot experience the fullness of God through definition alone!
My accelerator images are a perfect example of this. They heal and activate the individual through soul-level energy transmissions, which bypass the analytical mind allowing total integration.



Preparation and Maintenance



Before attending a class, prepare yourself for full integration through verbal intention and meditation. During the session, know that if you do not understand something mentally that’s OK, you are receiving it telepathically or energetically and will understand it at another time. After the session make time for yourself to contemplate and enjoy the energy before performing any mundane tasks.



It is also good to take a shower or bath after an initiation or Ascension session to clear any residue or dross from your field. Below is a list of things you can do each day, which will make your process easier. Conscious processing will allow you to understand and clear interference patterns with lightning speed, ease and grace.



This in turn will change the way you feel, think and live. From this point each day, you will create new perspectives and make frequent, fully integrated shifts in consciousness. You will become aware of what you are thinking and doing in each moment and will always make choices that are in alignment with your highest good.



Integral to this process are affirmations or prayers, which reverse all of the negative verbal and unconscious mental confusion during the day. After doing these for a short time you will notice that you are no longer manifesting negative thoughts and will be walking through doors that were previously closed to you.



For example, if you say “ I never have any money, I am always in debt,” you will counterbalance it with “ I am financially independent”. You may not understand how
these changes can occur with your present consciousness. This is due to lots of negative and limiting programming that you need to get rid of.. Using the affirmations for just a few minutes each day will minimize and eventually clear all negativity and judgment. They will also help to create a building momentum toward a positive future.



You can use the affirmations during the day when negativity come up or just keep track of the issues and do it all in the morning. I have included a few affirmations below to assist you in moving ahead. Feel free to make up your own as you go, addressing current issues each day.



And remember, although thoughts are powerful things, the spoken word (sound) is even more powerful. Also, the affirmations must be felt and not just said. If they are not emotionally integrated, they will not work properly. For instance, if you say, “I am divine passion!,” you need to feel the PASSION!



If you need to look in a dictionary or refer to some other source to get a better understanding of some words, by all means do what ever it takes.


A Few Tips:


1. Set the energy each morning. By doing this you are determining
how the rest your day will be. If you start your day in peace and spiritual
connection, that will be the primary energy of the day. If you start
your day in negativity or confusion, well


2. Connect with your Higher Self, spirit guide, guardian angel and
God. Feel the connections strengthen each day so they may assist
you in your daily life. State the intention that everything you are
saying here for yourself is also for all of humanity and the planet.

3. Surround and infuse your body in a luminous mantle of Christ
White Light. This clears all negative or interference patterns within
and around you. This will also clear your dream body and bring you into
a state of balance and harmony. Also, surround all current challenges
in your life with the White Light and ask the angels to assist you
in balancing these energies.

4. Visualize a clear path of white light or tunnel ahead of you,
projecting through the whole day. This will surround every person,
place and thing you will be encountering for the rest of the day.
It also neutralizes negativity and removes unforeseen obstacles.

5. State your affirmations for the day. Ask that all unconscious issues
and imbalances are brought into your conscious mind, so that you may
have the opportunity to clear them within yourself rather than experience
them externally.


6. Express gratitude to God and all assisting energies.

7. Close each day with a blessing and some deep breaths, which will
assist in relaxing and releasing any stress from the body.


Affirmations


I am the embodiment of joy, harmony and passion!
I am divine integrity, honesty, compassion and patience!
I am open to divine guidance, which brings me great wisdom, prosperity
and abundance!
I am creating and living my dreams in every moment!

Another powerful affirmation, which I have used, is “Each day, in every way, I am getting better and better and better…. Say this over and over again, 15 times in the morning and at night. It will reverse any negative programming regarding your self-image.


After the Storm!



During your earthly spiritual journey, choose a diverse range of processes and teachers (guides). This will provide you with many perspectives and allow you to embody a diverse range of spiritual frequencies.


Also, choose experiences that will shift you and give you new perspective and not just make you feel all warm, fuzzy, and safe! Most of all have fun and don’t take everything personally! Soon, all of the processing will be over and we will be able to complete our Ascension’s with dignity and grace. We will all experience ourselves as magnificent spiritual stewards of this planet!


May you be blessed with patience and clarity as you complete your wonderful, abundant, incredible journey into the 7th Golden Age of Enlightenment!
www.Bryandeflores.com
Welcome to the doorway of a full Awakening,
I wish you much love and light on your journey.
Loving you loving me,
Awakened777
ONE!

I want to believe so badly...SO LISTEN - listen to the wind of my Soul!

A LOT going on in my life. For the past few years, for various reasons and through many avenues, I have been focused on finding someone "compatible" with me. I haven't felt as if I "needed" someone for many years. And then, suddenly, when I got happy, I realized it would be nice to share this crazy-ass ride with another person and that it was something I desired. It was actually quite surprising because I really am happy being free & single and I do not feel as if anything is "missing" in my life.

So WHY, when what I ask for actually comes along, (and there's a downright freaky level of comfort with the entire thing), do I still have the slightest urge NOT to trust it???? Again, I hate it that this part of me still exists! I haven't had to fight with negative voices in my subconscious for a very long time! I'm much stronger now, much more conscious now, of where those thoughts eminate from, and I'm much better at telling myself to "SHUT THE FUCK UP"!!!

So, I'm finally catching up on some TV - a much lower priority in my life now than in the recent past. Watching this week's episode of Flash Forward (awesome show, awesome premise!). Japanese symbol comes up (God, I love my symbols!): it means, simply, "Believe".

'Nuf said.

So, my pain-in-the-ass-overthinking brain wants to know if it's my subconscious 'attracting' these "messages" - but then I, once again, tell myself to "SHUT THE FUCK UP" and say aloud,"does it really matter??"

 

Getting to know me...

These are things that I have learned about my place in this life, at this time:

"Old souls are often hedonistic and sensual, however, and can have a bawdy sense of humor. Old souls are often androgynous (having balanced masculine and feminine characteristics), and occasionally bisexuality is a part of their lifestyle. Gender identification is often weak in this Age because of subconscious contact with the whole psyche, which includes both masculine and feminine characteristics. What the Old soul seeks in romantic relationships is a "soul mate" — someone to whom he relates on a soul level. This might be someone else with whom he has spent many lifetimes, or another soul in his own Entity. The drive for this is so strong that it could be described as a compulsion."

Of the seven roles, or "types" of Souls (Server, Artisan, Warrior, Scholar, Sage, Priest, King) we can be, I am The Priest (highlights in blue are especially true for me):

The Priest Role 

The Priest role is also one of Inspiration, like the Server. But the kind of inspiration for which the Priest is a channel is to lift others up from their lowly condition, to inspire the people of the world to higher aspirations, to provoke people to noble virtues, and to raise the consciousness of mankind. In the Positive Pole of Compassion, the Priest feels sympathy for the psychological suffering in the souls of others, and seeks to alleviate it by encouraging them to find their way out of it.

If not in the actual ministry or priesthood, then another favorite life role that occupies many Priests is psychology, such as in counseling or psychiatry. Here they can apply their natural desire to heal to the task of healing the minds and spirits of their clients. Priests are very big on mental health — happiness, fulfillment, and positive attitude.

All Priests have a feeling that they have a Mission in life — a cosmic or divine Destiny. They sense that they are guided by the hand of God (whether they call It this or not) to show others the way to Truth.

No matter what kind of relationship a Priest is in, he will always desire to heal the mind and spirit of his partner. In this connection, like Servers, Priests often give sex as a healing service. (HeHe)

Priests view the whole world as their congregation. They reach down toward others and offer them illumination. They look up to God for their illumination. Priests are the shepherds of mankind, caring for their flocks, watching over them, helping them to grow to maturity. Their purpose in life is to break bonds and restraints which hold people back from fulfilling their potential. One of their favorite sayings might be, "You can do better than that." Priests point out the path to righteousness, and illumine it with supreme truth. If he is not behind the pulpit, then he is up on his soap box — preaching, exhorting, campaigning, crusading, proselytizing, provoking, and evangelizing.

Another significant factor in the consciousness of Priests is their emphasis on prosperity consciousness. They regard the universe as full to overflowing with the abundance of God. They proclaim that this richness is our natural inheritance — we should claim this plentifulness as our own. There is ample for all, and more, they say.

Like a person with the Goal of Growth, a Priest takes advantage of opportunities for greater experience. He promotes his development or that of others beyond their natural limits. He aspires to higher potentials and ever-increasing progress. Almost as if he was in the Passion Mode, a Priest behaves with freedom of expression and intensity of experience. His life is an open book, and he has a buoyant enthusiasm for life.

Like a Spiritualist, the Priest sees the whole universe as a manifestation of the glory of God, working out a Divine plan, ever evolving to a finer and higher state. He always looks on the bright side, and sees the world as miraculous. He regards every event as a propitious sign from Providence, which is ever looking down on him. With sensitivity and reverence the Priest is heartened and cheered up by events in the world. He is fascinated and awestruck at the wonders he beholds. Everything is an uplifting experience. A number of famous individuals have been or are Priests, and obviously so.

John Calvin (Protestant Reformation), Saint Dominic (founder of Dominican monks), St. Francis of Assisi (Catholic theologian), Joan of Arc, Jesse Jackson (Reverend), Carl Jung (psychologist and mystic), Abraham Maslow (psychologist), Oral Roberts (evangelist), Carl Rogers (psychologist), Martin Luther King, and Fred Rogers (children's TV show host).

The caring and enthusiastic inspiration of the Priest lovingly challenges us to seek fulfillment and evolution in our lives.  Priests have an uncanny way of making us unafraid of the things that scare us, and they help us face our fears with optimism and a greater resolve.  

Priests instinctively feel compassion for others, and this compassion can sometimes be seen as a loving light that seems to radiate from their faces.  When a Priest gazes into your space, it's almost as if they can see into the deepest reaches of your soul; effortlessly reaching inside of you if they wanted, and healing wounds you didn't even realize existed.  Priests seemingly have this natural ability to make connections with people that no other role can emulate.  

Natural healers, Priests have a special gift for channeling huge amounts of healing energy. In this regard, the mere act of being in the presence of a Priest can sometimes be highly therapeutic. Genuinely warm and nurturing, Priests are passionately interested in the spiritual growth of their subjects, and can therefore be masterful in inspiring people to step beyond their own self-imposed limitations to embrace life more fully.  

Priests are naturally at home in front of large groups of people, and can single handedly draw a spellbound crowd into profound levels of emotional awakening.

Overall, Priests are emotional, high spirited, and brimming with energy, and they approach life with determination and purpose.  Priests are truly on a mission. They are usually late to bed and early to rise, and rarely does a day go by when they don't find a way to either improve themselves or the people around them.  This can lead some Priests to become run down from the unwavering intensity of their zeal.  Although they may grow impatient with those who seem hopelessly stuck in the self-inflicted sands of inertia, (I’m working on this one!) the hallmark of the Priest is still compassion, and if we only learn to listen to their healing words and utopian visions, that shining star that has seemed so impossible for us to reach might one day become attainable. 

Awakening

AWAKENING TIP:

LET US MAKE A DISTINCTION BETWEEN ACQUIRED KNOWLEDGE AND REVEALED KNOWLEDGE.

ACQUIRED KNOWLEDGE IS THE INFORMATION THAT WE ACCUMULATE DURING THE COURSE OF OUR EVERYDAY EXPERIENCES OF LIFE.

BUT WHEN WE BEGIN TO VIEW LIFE THROUGH THE ANTIPODAL STANDPOINT (SEEING THROUGH THE EYES OF GOD) THEN WE ACCESS AN INBORN, INTUITIVE, REVEALED KNOWLEDGE THAT EXISTS IRRESPECTIVE OF THE HUMAN CONDITION.

MEDITATION IS THE ART OF MOVING BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN TWO PERSPECTIVES THE HUMAN AND THE DIVINE, DOWNPLAYING ONE LEVEL IN ORDER TO HIGHLIGHT THE OTHER.

EVENTUALLY, WE WILL LEARN TO EXTRAPOLATE MEANING FROM THE SYNTHESIS OF THESE DIFFERENT LEVELS.

THE STATE OF AWAKENING.

THE CULMINATION OF THE SPIRIT'S JOURNEY OF AWAKENING IS NOT JUST RETURNING TO ITS ORIGINAL STATE.

INSTEAD, IT IS HOW THE SOUL HAS EVOLVED THROUGH ITS PASSAGE ON EARTH: WHAT MEANING HAS BEEN EXTRACTED FROM ITS EXPERIENCES?

 WHAT ARCHETYPAL QUALITIES HAVE UNFOLDED AS A RESULT OF THE IMMENSE DIFFICULTIES IT HAS ENDURED AND THE UNIQUE WAY EACH SOUL'S UNFOLDMENT HAS CONTRIBUTED TO THE EVOLUTION OF THE UNIVERSE ITSELF.

Thank you Awakened777 from MySpace!

Gently down the stream...

I haven't had a "wow" moment in a long time. It's been overdue. Yesterday was my 1 year surgiversary and I am so blessed. I've been socially starving for the last 2 months and getting depressed over it. Self-inflicted hell was what it was.. See, I said, "was". Thank God for my brain!!! I know exactly what my Soul needs in order to be happy. I need to shorten the duration of going without though!! (Me and consistently do not get along.)

As I sit and watch the season premiere of So You Think You Can Dance. If you know me, you'll know how much I love this show!! It is so full of positive energy and I've missed that!! I need that energy around me at all times and I can only by interacting with people. And, making them think about how they feel and feel about how they think.

Anyway, this is all about teaching. Back a few posts, I wrote about my NEED to teach.

15 minutes ago I was led to an online lecture about Abraham Maslow. And I went to get the link at Facebook and the 'wow' moment went nuclear. I ended up at the EduFire website. When you create an account, you have to choose:

First Time Here? Welcome!

I am a:
Student  (I want to learn from an online tutor)
Teacher  (I want to teach online for payment)

 

So was I led here to help me teach or to learn? I'll have to meditate on that one.

 

Or.. there could be that I don't really need the PhD to teach (as many smart people have said). I keep making excuses to fill out the paperwork. But what if I really don't have to? Then I wouldn't be debt until the day I become a natural reef - LMAO!! Note to brain:  YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE MEDITATING!!

 

I never had the ability to make people change and believe using ration and logic anyway. (And for the longest time that is the only approach to my fellow humans that I understood -childhood shit.) LONG story on the metamorphasis that has taken place (but a fun one, that's for sure!)  

 

Way back at the beginning of this post, I wanted to explain the 'wow'. Maslow: "What one *can* be, one *must* be." And hence comes that the feeling that I'm going to explode if I don't TEACH! I am going to the lecture! Check out http://www.philosophersnotes.com  Come on! It's his birthday today! Help him teach, for it is what he was put here to do.

 

If you've read this far and haven't had a seizure from all the colors :=) Thanks for keeping up with my lessons of today!

 

And now, back to our regularly scheduled programming: going back to dancing - it makes me happy.

And I'm back. (Terminator: Salvation was just okay and it was nice they payed homage to the originals.) Oops, no I'm not.

Okay, yes I am. So what were we discussing? Oh yeah, How do I get on with my purpose???? I'm the way, but daaaayyyyuuuummmm - I have NO PATIENCE!! Things just don't move as fast as I want them to! And then I get bored and lose interest and get spiritually constipated, then I have to go through this whole process of purging and re-learning the same damn lessons I already know. I WANT OFF THIS ROLLERCOASTER! (getting a Cedar Point season pass - woohoo!)

Seriously, everyone knows that I HATE REPEATING MYSELF!!! Fuck! Sorry (no I'm not), but I really need a good swift kick sometimes. What I call God bashing me upside my head with a 2 X 4!! Eventually, I'll get it. Why does LIFE have to get in the way of movement forward versus in a circle?!

You know, one just got me...

I haven't been watching TV much (except So you think you can dance and Saving Grace comes back the day after my birthday!) So my Angels have to communicate with me through music. And hindsight is awesomely clear.

Last night on the way to work, I heard The Eagles' "Wasted Time". No biggie, like the song.

But right now, I've got a song stuck in my head I heard this morning on the way home. Actually, a particular lyric:

"Oh, I'm so blind Oh, I'm blind
I wasted time Wasted, wasted, wasted time
Walkin' on the wire, high wire
But I must let the show go on

And I just now realized today's THEME! See letter to the pen pal years ago about wasting my talents but not having a clue what those were. You've come a long way, baby!"

And for confirmation the song lyric popped back in and screamed "I must let the show go on" ---

That spiritual kick in the ass I can always count on? YEPPERS!

I HAVE TO MOVE FORWARD. I have to stay on track. I need other people to help me. I consistently ask for that and the people that pop in and out or stay are all pretty damn cool. Would it be too much to ask for to have the help on a consistent basis? HA! I've never been consistent one day in my life - is that Karma?? A self-inflicted punishment? (Whoa, that was deep - Applied Behavior Analysis just ran through my head - finals week.) Perhaps it is. WTF???

I of all people know just how powerful the Law of Attraction is! Even at my lowest wallowing point, little Synchronicity would slip in to keep me from sinking. You won't ever convince that me we don't have Angels.

Oh - so, I'm wallowing but climbing out of it - (lyric: with a little help from my friends)... I was really stressed out over money and school. The school one was easy - write a sugary-sweet but bitchy letter to the professor, get the fuck over it and do a good job on her final paper.

The money one - never so easy. But I'm getting much better at trusting. And as soon as I hit solid ground, I changed my thinking and started trusting. Yesterday I got an email telling me my stipend has been mailed and I'm getting a check for $700!! See previous posts about The Law at work in my lfie.

HA - writing is my avenue of putting The Law to work for me too. As I'm writing it, my thinking patterns are positive and I start to attract. I was just led here:

Wayne Dyer's movie, "The Shift - Ambition to Meaning: Finding your life's purpose.

Do I sound mmildly manic? Or is it just my crazy astrological profile stuff :-)

 The Gemini/Goat is a firefly who flits about in others' lives out of sheer caprice; a tired pessimist who denigrates and disagrees with the world at large; or perhaps he's the eternally disappointed critic whose longing for perfection (in others, of course) leads him to drop acerbic comments as though they were rose petals. The Gemini/Goat is a bit of a lot of different things. You won't find many Goats running around loose. Goats need other people. All Goats require both company and guiding forces. Gemini is the mercurial sign: quick, volatile, fickle. So put these together. Dependency and fickleness. Like a smiling, chubby baby who's looking around for a change from his dull parents and leaps into the arms of almost anybody who passes his stroller in the street. Obviously, this versatile person makes a fabulous - if temporary - lover. When they find themselves in bed with one, they may well be thinking of the next or the last great lovemaking session. Butterflies in bed, they can think up the most ingenious sex games and...

Whichever it is, it's a fun ride most of the time! THANK YOU!

Holy crap, I've got homework to do!

And not for school. I was reading over at the Saving Grace blog and was led to research something a poster said. She said, "I thought this episode was fantastic. Her definition of sex was right on the money. I think it is a sacred union of the feminine and masculine divine when done right and brings a couple to the moment of creation. It is the Great Work, the heiros gamos, all of that."

I had to go Wikipedia "The Great Work". And I was led right back to where I was on my journey. More energy, more answers:

The Great Work (Latin: Magnum opus) is a term which originated in medieval European alchemywhich refers to the successful completion of the transmutation of base matter into goldor the creation of the philosopher's stone. It has subsequently been used as a metaphor for spiritual transformation in the Hermetic tradition. It has three stages:^[4]

• nigredo(-putrefactio), blackening(-putrefaction): individuation, purification, burnout of impureness; see also Suns in alchemy - Sol Niger
• albedo, whitening: spiritualisation, enlightenment
• rubedo, reddening: unification of man with god, unification of the limited with the unlimited.

So there's that "Individuation" thing again. I have to really study this to understand the stages I've been through and where I'm at now. All I can say about all the stages? Fuckin' WOW!

Earl had a great speech about The Infinite. Infinity has always been in my life - the symbol that is, the Lemniscate (I know that word because of another Angel - a story some other time). It's on the front page of this place; I wear a diamond lemniscate around my neck and never take it off. Flashback to high school: 9th grade English class with Mrs. Bangeter. The pen pal saw me doodling this sign-kind-of-a-thing (he sat behind me). He said he had a book on symbols and could tell me what they meant. (See why I crushed on him?) I told him I didn't know why I drew it, or chose those two, it just resonates with me. The two symbols? The lemnicate with a cross through the middle. My next piece of jewelry perhaps (I need a sugardaddy LMAO!).

So, like I said The Infinite has always been a part of my life, my psyche, my spirit. And I didn't believe the psychic lady at my birth mother's funeral who told me I was extremely religious - only she should have used the word 'spiritual' instead.

I truly believe that you can commune with God and "communicate". I always say, 'you have to ask the right questions' and have honest motivation to know the answers.

Back to the Universe...

I needed to relax so I opened myself up to vibrations this morning after work. The last 2 weeks, I've been constipated - spiritually, that is. I didn't go out with the girls last weekend and I'm thinking I probably should have - I should have been "bad".

I've finally acknowledged that my sexuality is one facet of my personality that needs to stay satisfied if I am to maintain being a complete happy person. I've had a 2 week dry spell in that area.

I was having a bit of online, innocent fun with the pen pal but that seems to have fizzled. I tried, and I'll wait (never patiently!), but in the meantime, I'M NOT HAVING ANY FUN, DAMMIT!! So... I got contipated.

Add hormones to that and you've got a lot of room for negative energy to enter! And the kids - no the youngest - God grant me patience! And work - and school starting and money and the business - CALGON TAKE ME AWAY!

I called my girlfriend and told her we HAVE to go out next weekend! And then, I sat down to watch this week's episode of Saving Grace.

It was all about Tantric Sex and open relationships. Very interesting - of course, there's a murder to be solved as well! So, Grace is studying up on Tantra and in pops her Angel "Earl". I'm going to try to quote his words as he is talking about Tantra, Hinduism and religion in general. It was awesome. And contained in it was my Angel's message for me concerning my sexuality. Just simple confirmation about the thoughts that were in my head. Energy attracting energy.

I just went to see if I could find the quotes in text and found this instead (about the show when it first came out and about the character of Grace):

"She's a whole person," Hunter said. "So in thinking about someone's sexuality, it's an integral part of who they are every day, every month, every year of their lives, and this is an integral part of the exploration that we're making of Grace."

BAM! Could it get any more obvious?

So, on to the "It's NOT wrong" topic...I have learned so much from this TV show! I was even just reminded that I'm a member at a blog called "Embrace your Grace" - and boy does that not tell me something! I need to embrace the parts of me that get me closer to God. Period.

Here's the episode in a nutshell (from the blog):

The Eastern tradition of Tantra helped shape this episode. When Grace meets William Drugh, the architect who incorporates Tantra principles into his life, Grace is immediately intrigued, inciting her to reflect on her own sexuality.

Inevitably, Grace ends up in a discussion with Earl about sex where she poetically explains sex is about sharing and coming alive—a creation between your partner and you. Rather than being judgmental and possibly surprising to some of you, Earl declares Grace’s description to be beautiful. “Maybe even what God had in mind when he created Adam and Eve.” Earl goes on to tell Grace, “God made you to search for the ones who lean into the table. The live ones. He gave you a big appetite girl. And sent me along to mix up the menu.” Earl’s conversation with Grace demonstrates how Grace and Earl’s relationship is evolving. He’s not condemning Grace for her voracious sexual appetite, but rather serving as her guide in this crazy human existence. What are your thoughts about where Grace and Earl’s relationship is headed? Do you prefer it when Earl appears to be more judgmental of Grace?

WOW! Can the Universe now send me one of those "LIVE" ones???? Or a few - wink, wink???? I am SO going out next weekend!!

And finally, what Earl says about sex and religion:

Grace asks him how he feels about sex. He says, "Well, I think it's a sacred gift. Grace says, "the Catholic church says that you can only open it to make babies." Earl says, "Not true. Lotta hogwash out there about sex and religion. Not one major religion thinks sex is bad. But some Eastern beliefs view sex as a way of getting closer to the Divine." He asks Grace what she thinks about sex:

Grace answers, "You're alive! You feel your blood get hot, everything gets hot and you come alive. And you share that - you give that to your partner and you receive it and FEEL it. And this moment is a creation between the two of you."

 Earl thought that was beautiful. So do I. Earl says, "maybe THAT's what God had in mind when he made Adam and Eve." 

Sex is a great way to get closer to God - I just need to find one of those damn "LIVE" ones! I am SO going out this weekend!

____Time out on the stream of consciousness____

 

I must have needed more wisdom, because there was a plaque on the wall of the massage room in the TV show (I finally made it back to watch it). The plaque said, "the Individual IS God".

I have fully embraced my weirdness and uniqueness but I still spend time trying to find others like me. The current lesson is not only to celebrate the weirdness, but celebrate every single aspect of it!

This moment's wisdom :-)

I just got my daily message from the Unity Church: Fitting or what?

Saturday, March 14, 2009 – Change

"Without change, something sleeps inside us, and seldom awakens. The sleeper must awaken." ~Frank Herbert

Today's Affirmation

I embrace change easily and without fear.

Today's Meditation

Dear God, Everything is evolving, unfolding and becoming. My life is not the same as it was yesterday, and thank You it will not be the same tomorrow. I move from good to greater good. Conditions in the outer world may change, but Your presence is constant and sure. Amen

Everything I believe.. WOW!

http://www.experiencefestival.com/forum/blogs/awaken777/317-embrace-process.html

And

http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=210286794&blogId=361012956

I no longer have to try to explain my belief system - this person wrote it so beautifully! And it was just the affirmation I needed at this point in my journey! WOW!

I ALWAYS get what I want (and need)!!

That title is said with all the sarcasm writing can't possibly accurately portray, but...

I do always get everything I want and need. And just by typing this, I'm reinforcing this by putting that energy out there. That whole "Secret" thing - even though I learned it long before it came out - IT WORKS!

I think it's only been fairly recently, 2 years or so, that I really began using it, believing it and recognizing it when it shows up in my life.

Read some of the past posts and follow the progression - it's pretty damn amazing!

So this is my grateful post! I just got off the phone with a fairly new friend who has provided me with most of everything I asked for last summer. I asked for someone to talk to. I have no problem with playing counselor to everyone else but dammit, if I don't need someone in my life who can give me an outside perspective on my life and my journey. She has turned out to be a huge teacher on many levels - Soul, Path, Psychology, Spiritually.

The biggest thing she said to me was about Soul Age. I know I'm an Old Soul and because of that I absorb Soul knowledge at a much quicker pace than most other people. She explained that I am traveling my particular journey at breakneck speed and most other Souls are not. This is why people come and go so quickly in and out of my life. Those foster homes - each time I changed homes, my Soul knew it was ready for the next lesson. Well, at least that it had accumulated enough raw material for the lessons to be learned 25 years later.

The way that she explained made it so much sense to me! She is also around to tell me to 'SLOW THE HELL DOWN'! (Lionel Richie song playing in my head 'Can't Slow Down'). I told her that she truly is an Angel on my journey and THANK YOU!

Other people have come into my life recently who have provided other things I've asked for (see my 'fun' posts!) and things have just been falling into place so nicely lately!

Try it, it works. Who has come into your life recently that has something you've asked for or that has something to teach you - even if you didn't ask for the lesson??

A new adventure...

I won't go into details in this category, but I just participated in something that I haven't done in a long time. All the while telling myself that I was being true to myself - the whole "100% ME" thing. Yes, I've done this "type" of thing with others - but never with anyone that actually 'mattered'. Talk about a soul-bearing experience! Honestly, it was a first for me, and that's rare to come by these days!

And all morning, I've been meaning to do a guide reading. I was waiting until I was in the 'right' frame of mind. I just did and this is what I got (see previous post about self esteem):

I drew the "Self Esteem/Guardian Angel Michael" card...

"You may feel like the 'ugly duckling' right now, as others snicker at you and discount your ideas and beliefs. They may even outright laugh at you. Fortunately, the Guardian Angel Michael is present to help you remain grounded and true to yourself, even in the face of being so profoundly misunderstood. He counsels you to remain faithful to yourself and rebel against the ignorance of others. Don't be afraid to stick up for yourself and your beliefs. Yes, it's scary, and you'll probably feel alone, but never fear: Michael is surrounding you, and he urges you to ignore popular opinion."

"Don't seek approval, and don't let the put-downs of others get you down. Michael encourages you to claim your self esteem and use your voice to define your boundaries and uphold them. Be aware of those who would like nothing more than to knock you off your pedestal and throw you into self-doubt. They would steal your soul if you let them. Summon your courage and invoke Michael to protect you. Tell those who invade your space or disrespect you in any way to back off! Michael's message: to take a stand."

 

Well, damn. You cannot tell me that a person's energy (Angels) doesn't have the ability to attract exactly what it needs at that moment. That is one belief I will always defend.

I needed to hear this right now. 'Nuf said.

Philosophy of the day...

My daily email from PhilosphersNotes:

To refuse the call means stagnation. What you don't experience positively you will experience negatively." ~ Joseph Campbell from A Joseph Campbell Companion

(Soul) Phone rings.

It's God on the other line.

You just let it ring... and ring... and ring...

Not good.

You stagnate.

All that potential positive energy you would have unleashed on your hero's journey?

It comes back against you. And destroys you.

Eek.

...

Jesus said the same thing, btw: "If you bring forth what is inside you, what you bring forth will save you. If you don't bring forth what is inside you, what you don't bring forth will destroy you." (that's from the Gnostic Gospel of Thomas)

And, so did hip-hop mogul Russell Simmons (:)): "Your purpose is to act on the resources God gives you. If God gives you a bucket of fish, you have to distribute those fish. If you don't, they're going to rot, attract a bunch of flies, and start stinking up your soul."

Kind of fits with what I'm feeling today.

Things I've learned - not an original...

Found this on someone's blog:

The periods of my greatest personal growth have always occurred following my times of the greatest emotional trauma.  (In fact it is these times that it is most important to make sure you learn)

I have learned to not stress about things you can't change because there is really no point.  

I have learned that if I can’t change something I can always change my perspective on it (this one has been huge btw).

I am not sure if a leopard can change its spots but I sure have not seen it happen yet.

I have learned that one can waste a lifetime trying to be a person they're not just to miss out on who they are.

I've also learned that no mater who you are it does not mean you can't become a better person.

I have learned that people lie...and that sometimes they truly can’t help it.

 

I have also learned that it does not make it right.

I know that I don’t need laws, a book, society, or even Dr. Phil to tell me what is right from what is wrong; that answer has always been inside me. 

I have learned that the more rationalizing needed the more the likelihood is that one is justifying what they know to be wrong. 

That when it is nature vs. nurture...nature usually wins.

I have learned that having a big and trusting heart does not make you a fool even though there will be people who will make you feel like one for having one.

I have learned that a simple smile opens a lot of doors.

That life is only a blink, so see as much as you can while you are here. (I have also learned that this does pertain to locality only.)

That if someone shows you his or her true colors, take note, because they could be good at hiding them.

I've learned that the truest and most unbiased love will come from your children.

I have found that a pet dog can teach you a lot about yourself if you pay attention.

have most certainly learned that if a relationship is unhealthy then it is not one you need to be in regardless of what you think you may feel.

I have also learned that it takes a lot of emotional balls to end a relationship you want when you know it to be unhealthy.

I am still figuring out love vs. lust... I think because both can be so very powerful.

That it is not all about me.

That sometimes you do things simply because it is the right thing to do.

That age truly is a state of mind.

That just because you can does not mean you have to.

I have learned that money comes easy, but happiness can be very elusive.

That in retrospect, there are always signs, and that it is important to recognize them so you will know which way to go the next time you see them.

That you can't be honest with someone else until you are truly honest with yourself and that can be a bitch.

I have realized that there are many different forms of intelligence and the most intelligent people make the best of theirs.

I have learned that a square peg does not fit in a round hole no matter how hard you pound it.

I have learned that it is a rare thing in this life to find someone who will truly understand all your parts but a very special thing to find a person who will accept them as they are, without attempting to change them.

Mostly, I have learned that our path is right in front of us and when you have to try and force your way it usually means you are off of it. I have learned that time off my path is wasted and I have learned not to waste my time.

I got my answer!!

30 minutes ago, I had a conversation with myself... in front of the bathroom mirror (where I've always said, you can't lie to yourself).

I was talking to myself about where I'm going in life. WooHoo - I actually like looking at myself again! I guess I was a having a momentary crisis of direction.

Last night's reading assignment made me think that I would really really love being a crisis counselor. But then the whole "working with adults with traumatic childhoods" thing comes up.

So, I asked myself. And the instantaneous answer that came to me was really a prayer of sorts:

"Stop pressuring yourself! I give it to you - take me where you will."

In this sense, "you" is more or less the Universe as I call it; some call it God, take your pick. It works for me.

Then, I came back to watch this week's episode of ER. A patient asks Neela if she wants to know her fortune. She keeps running into different versions of the same Buddhist monk. Toward the end she has a rant that says she's supposed to have goals and how could she have come this far in her life and not know what she wants from it. Simon says, (lol) "Neela, you don't have to know exactly where you're going, you just gotta keep moving forward."

DID I JUST GET MY ANSWER FROM THE UNIVERSE??

But wait, there's more....

In the very last version of her day, Neela finally lets the little girl tell her her fortune. It says, "Your actions are the seeds of faith."

'Nuff said.

 

 

 

Alanis Morissette...

Yes, I was lead here for a reason....

I started reading song lyrics by her and was reminded of yesterday's post about men being able to communicate their "souls" in writing. Well, this lady does with flair and abandon! And the ones I have this much stuff in common with - there's really something there to teach - or perhaps to help me feel less alone and thus more connected to humanity.

It's funny - everything I need I am given - truly. I needed a place where I can be sarcastic, bitchy self to balance out the hippie chick. I found a Rants & Raves Forum recently and having a lot of fun with all the drama. The Universe really does know what you need - all you have to do is ask and be grateful when it appears.

Anyway, I went researching song lyrics, and then Astrology on Alanis. I didn't have a clue about her really - only from song lyrics. But I knew I had things - huge things - in common with her and I would have bet my life that she was a Gemini - I was right! June 1, 1974. Thank God for Google - her complete birth chart. So let's see...

This actually came from the chart: "By sharing her "wounds" (Chiron) through her music, Alanis shares a special relationship with her public (Midheaven=public). Chiron, as a wounded healer, first must face issues of low self-worth and feelings of inadequacy and learn to rise above these issues. Because the wound goes deep, and the person involved works hard to overcome the wound, healing powers are potent."

I agree with this completely! I just read that she was raped and abused as a teenager - no wonder I feel a sisterhood with her. And it fits with all the songs about low self esteem and losing yourself. I did my healing, evolving, and learning privately - I can't imagine what it must be like for her to have it be public. WOW!

I wonder if she's ever read her astrological profile. I'm off to research...

I think, and I try not to believe I need a reason, that this whole thing boils down to an affirmation that I am meant to help people, damaged adults with fucked-up lives, through psychology and my experiences. To give them a light at the end of the tunnel that is low self-esteem and fear of abandonment.

I've got lots of people in my life that I give counsel to and the other day I was wishing, just once, I could have someone who would listen to me and my issues, but I never, EVER meant to imply that I wasn't grateful for the ones that I can help now. THANK YOU!