When I started this blog 14 years ago, I was FULL of questions - What is the meaning of Life? Why am I here? Why now? Why this place? What is my purpose? Why this family? Why do I have the Life that I have? How can I find peace? If I do find peace, WHY? If I don't, why NOT?
Over the years, I have been given answers & wisdom. I will always have questions because that's who I am, but the big ones answered themselves simply by living and so, I no longer ask "WHY".
These pages and random spewings chronicle the evolution of my subconscious mind, my consciousness, and more importantly, my Soul.
Now I want to share the wisdom I received from many forms of Guides, Angels and Sages. I often share such with sarcasm, humor and in-your-face brutal honesty - so be prepared - but my intentions are always pure.
My purpose here is to simply shine my light on your dark corners. It is up to YOU to either battle or dance with the shadows that are created. Either way, I accept YOU, shadows and all!
"YOU SHOULD NEVER EVER DOUBT WHAT NO ONE IS SURE ABOUT". ~ Willie Wonka
Continuing his journey, the Fool comes upon a beautiful and
mysterious veiled lady enthroned between two pillars and illuminated by
the moon. She is the opposite of the Magician, quiet where he was
loquacious, still where he was in motion, sitting while he stood,
shrouded in the night where he was out in the bright of day. Sensing
that she is a great seer, the Fool lays out his sword, chalice, staff
and pentacle before her. "The Magician showed me these, but now I'm in a
quandary. There are so many things I could do with them. I can't
The High Priestess doesn't speak. Instead she hands him a pair of
ancient scrolls. Seating himself at her feet, the Fool puts his
decision-making on hold and reads by the light of her crescent moon.
"I did not know any of this," says the Fool. The scrolls, like a
secret manual, have given him insight into his new tools. "This
information helps me to narrow things down, but I'm still afraid of
making a wrong decision."
The words come to him then, not from without but from within:
"What do your instincts tell you?" The Fool reflects on that, and that's
when he knows what he should do. Decision made, he rises to leave even
though he suspects that the High Priestess has more secrets she could
reveal to him--like what lies behind the pomegranate curtain. Right now,
however, he is focused and ready to be on his way.
Thanking the High Priestess, he heads off. But as he leaves he
hears that inner voice, rising like the waters which spring and flow
from beneath her throne: "We'll meet again...when you're ready to travel
the most secret path of all."
Once you have an idea, you also have decisions to make. The High
Priestess holds scrolls of arcane information in her arms. In addition,
the moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates
her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see about a
job possibility, an investment, love, career, family, etc. But you need
some alone time, some quiet time to meditate and reflect.
This is what the card is all about. Seated between two pillars as
between two choices, the High Priestess is not about making a decision
so much as holding decision-making at bay while you take time to listen
to your inner voice. She wants you to gain knowledge before you act:
instinctual knowledge, supernatural knowledge, secret knowledge,
The High Priestess, however, goes beyond even that for those who
seek more. Behind her throne is the curtain that leads to the deepest,
most esoteric knowledge; the pomegranates that decorate it remind us of
Persephone, who was taken down into the land of the dead, ate its fruit
and became the only goddess allowed to travel to and from that strange
land. The High Priestess is our guide to all that is mysterious and
If there is a card that symbolizes the tarot reader it is the
High Priestess. A woman (or man!) of psychic powers, intuition and
secret knowledge. Where the Magician is about revealing, the High
Priestess is about keeping things hidden behind the curtain. Where he
urges the querent to verbalize what he's thinking, the High Priestess
urges him to silently reflect on his feelings.
She is not only the complement to the Magician, however, but to
two other majors. She is the counterpoint to the Hierophant, maintaining
secret traditions and rites passed from seer to successor, rather than
advocating community traditions. And she is the natural moonlight to the
Hermit's manmade lantern, equally solitary and of the night, but acting
as restful librarian of information rather than restless seeker of it.
If the reader feels the High Priestess stands for the querent
then this is a time of solitary investigation for them or perhaps just a
time to trust their instincts. Things kept secret will be revealed,
either passed on to them by another or coming to them psychically by way
of visions or powerful feelings. Insights may be found in crystal
balls, tea leaves, dreams or conversations with spirits.
Standing for someone other than the querent, the High Priestess
is usually read as a spiritual woman or medium, a teacher of archaic
knowledge, librarian or just a reclusive relative who knows many family
secrets. She may come across as cold, unpredictable and scary, but her
instincts and insights will be uncanny.
The High Priestess if often seen as a perpetual maiden, the
eternal virgin of an Athena, Diana or Vesta. But some view her as also
representing a woman who might be pregnant. In such instances, the High
Priestess is NOT viewed as an emblem of fertility, a "mother," but
rather as a still, quiet incubator where the "idea" (child) can remain
stable and protected.
"I've a new idea," says the querent--thanks to the Magician. But
now there are decisions to make. What direction should one take this
idea? The High Priestess not only offers illumination, revealing secret
paths and hidden dangers, but also a still, quiet place between the
pillars of dark and light, existence and negation, wax and wane where
one can pause, see, feel and reflect on what one really wants to do with
So, Thursday night at work, I did a possibly-dumb thing and contacted someone I probably should not have. Although cathartic in a way, I still wonder at the motivation sometimes. Anyway, that led me to updating my FaceBook profile, in which the only thing I really did was add a shitload of quotes that I just adore. I've got hundreds saved all over this computer and it was fun reading some of them.
And some of them resonated differently this time. The much-needed lessons of the moment:
This one is not by any means where it started, but it is where I was led just now. “I (may) disapprove of what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it. […] Think for yourselves and let others enjoy the privilege to do so too."
It was actually the second time I saw that in the last 2 days. Not weird since I was just reading quotes - LOL - But... I was also just discussing challenges in class last night. As in, "challenge me, please! Let's see how fast I can totally crush it!"
The second occurrence of that quote came from a FaceBook link to a group for Psychology majors. And they also had this one:
"Yeah, I'm a psychology major...no, I can't read your mind ..................What can I say, I like the padded walls!" --LMAO!!!
But the first quote that I found today was on this Psych teacher's Facebook profile (not a group). ""To the mind that is still, the whole universe surrenders"
The lesson the last month or so has been all about learning to meditate. I HAVE TO! I joked to the this guy that this Behavioral Analysis class was going to give me a cerebral hemmorhage! I have to learn to quiet this head of mine.
Grace says, "I wanna bust the world wide open. The way you do when you're filled with YOU. I wanna engage with people, and fellow cops. I wanna be physical and I also want to ask the big questions. I wanna taste the tastes and fix the problems. I wanna run headlong into chaos and bad guys and darkness and pranks and fun and laugh, laugh, laugh. I want to be the best friend, and the greatest aunt and the most and the most complicated daughter. I want to be the 'mystery' in the room and I want to be known. Embrace your Grace!"
I found that profoundly meaningful. Now that's PASSION! Kudos to the writers of this show! And the advertising people who thought of that speech as an advertisement! It's brilliant!
Earl said, "Faith is the ticket to freedom."
And Tantra guy said, "for it is the ego of the individual that makes great change in this world."
I have been getting a lot of inspiration from music the last month or so. Today, I had Totally 70's on Sirius satellite playing at work today. I heard a song that I have had on my "wanted" list for over 30 years. I couldn't find it anywhere! It's one of those hokey, hickey songs my foster mother used to listen to. And today is a funny day for that song to appear.
"Keep on Singin'" by Helen (I am Woman) Reddy. The lyrics resonate with me. "you're gonna make a lotta people happy, when they come see you play". That's what I want to do more than anything.
I want to be: a cross between Robin Williams, Oprah Winfrey, Dr. Phil, Dr. Ruth, Mae West and Jesus - who lectures and heals (thru laughter and tears) in a groovy disco van. Oh, and she occasionally "reads" people too.
Anyone have any career suggestions? (that was FUN!)
Ok, movie night - strange one called "Safe". Ignored it playing in the backround for most of it. But these two tidbits got my attention:
The leading lady needs to write to feel freely herself and she goes to the desert to do it.
1. - I got an email from the Arizona hospital this week and I have said many times this week how the desert calls to my Soul. I applied for jobs and put it out to the Universe - I'll worry about the details later.
2. - I was thinking just 5 minutes ago (bathroom inspiration) that at times like these - I write from a place I can't quite name. And I just finished writing about how much fun I'm having writing tonite.
Perhaps, I'll be writing this "thing-I-call-my-life" story in Phoenix. And having intelligent conversation with a real friend who lives there!
Movie's over - this is a powerful movie with a message for all women who have "issues" and want to learn how to evolve into happiness. The final scene is of this woman looking at herself in the mirror and "practicing" saying, "I Love You" to her reflection.
This is exactly the thing that Charlie made me do (I think) and that I tell my "clients" to do. Unfortunately, not many comprehend just how powerful that can be.
Damn, I need to be on the lecture circuit! (Woohoo - back to fun)
This card has its share of challenges and its share of gifts. Like all fives, they dislike routine and abhor anything that pretends to limit their freedom. They can be perpetual wanderers, never settling down for anything long enough to make it pay off. This includes their work and relationships. All Fives have an inner restlessness, but they truly want to accomplish something of value and stability in their lives. They are inherently spiritual and know what is of true value. The challenge comes in practicing what they know. They come into this life with a certain amount of karma which often takes considerable hard work to discharge. If they are lazy, there will be many problems. They must practise what they know and do what it takes to get the job done without shirking responsibility. They make great sales people and they have tried many things in life and know how to relate to anyone on their own level. Their inner truth is their guiding light.
Doing my favorite thing tonite - watching the TV shows I recorded this week, relaxing and learning from whatever the Universe throws at me.
The past 2 weeks have been hard. I didn't want to come home from work tonite. I worked almost full time day-shift last week and this week - something I've never done. I love the job and am grateful the extra hours I've had the opportunity to get. My three boys have run me ragged. The older two, on different days, acted like 2-year-old brats. Last night I got into a huge screaming match with my oldest son who is 14. I hate fighting with him.
So, tonite they are with their Dad and I get to unwind. First up is the Barbara Walter interviews:
Matthew McConaughey: Spoke of a book that changed his life (funny the way a book can do that) - "The World's Greatest Sales Person" (or something like that). He said, YOU ARE.
"Be everything that you ARE and nothing that you're NOT." - wise words from a cool (and sexy) guy!
Mariah Carey - "I've learned that forgiveness is one the most important things in Life." And boy is that learning process a doozy!
And George Clooney didn't have any "wise" words, but he had a sense of humor that proves that he's a very enlightened human being.
Woman who was previously insulted by Simon Cowell about her weight had this to say when face-to-face with him again:
"Simon, you hurt me. And it was painful, it really was. But I want you to know that I've forgiven you. And that you don't need someone to apologize to forgive somebody. And I figured that if Jesus could die so all of my wrongs could be forgiven, I can certainly extend that same Grace to you."
Randy Jackson says, "Amen".
Simon apologizes. He also had a wonderous look of humility in his eye!
Boy, if more people would extend that Grace to others - the world would be a much nicer place!
This evening I was thinking about those little store tags you have that you scan, library cards are scanned, and then I went to Politics (that's why I didn't post it at the time) and how much "people" can know about you thru these things.
Just now I was flipping channels and found the News. A story was just airing about register scanners...
(Time lapse of 15 minutes)
I'm chillin' and still watching the Steve Martin Biography. I decide to find the official site and it loads and I see: Steve Martin will host SNL on Feb. 4th.
I had to check my frig calendar - I had written it down because Prince is the musical guest! Pretty funny... and I'm watchin' it!
Now, A&E is showing Biography on Simon Cowell from American Idol. The man happens to be very warm and fuzzy which most people wouldn't know by his AI persona. He says:
there’s a time for brutal honesty. It’s more kind to be honest with people; it’s what I would want myself"
I was just tonite talking with one person on the phone and e-mailing another and trying my best to be that honest -- but I am having a hard time not worrying about hurting their feelings.
There was one item of Synchronicity between the two shoes: Steve Martin and Simon both speak of the magic trick of sawing the lady in half…
Simon's advice to people trying to realize their dreams and goals: "Find a Mentor".
Which is what my Angels are working on for me... (then I went to bed without my sleeping pills and had the most interesting dreams about Simon Cowell.. :-)
Ok, watching "Biography" on A&E - Steve Martin. Beyond interesting - he taught me something! He surrounds himself with things that resonate with his Soul and he wrote a book called "The Pleasure of My Own Company" ...
these are things that I was just discussing tonite with a few people... I would rather stay in the comfort of those things than spend time with things that don't resonate.
Oh, and he's a writer.. he writes FOR and OF his Soul. And he communicates in the abstract and most people can't keep up with his mind. Kindred Spirit? Message there?
"...The discovery of beauty in places no one ever thought of looking." - from "Love and Death on Long Island".
- If only we would take the time to find beauty in these places - the world would be a very different place.
"...I'm getting really tired of hearing myself say, 'no'." - from "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind".
The last few weeks especially. Once I feel "purposeless", negative energy enters my life space and I frequently catch myself saying, "no" - or some other self-depracating language. At these times, I go look in the mirror and tell that voice to "shut the hell up." (see previous post about brutal honesty and mirrors.)
"...I'm just a fucked-up girl trying to find my own peace of mind - don't assign me yours." - from "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind."
People come to me for "life coaching" and advice. They say I make it all seem so easy - when in fact at times i think I'm quite crazy. Funny the way that works - giving advice to others reinforces everything that I've worked for.
This morning after work I found the movie "Jersey Girl". No, I'm not a fan of Ben Affleck all that much, but this part was written to suit him and it's a great chick-flick.
When I speak of obtaining wisdom from movies or song lyrics, what I'm really saying is that there are opportunities to learn lessons everywhere. And that when I hear certain things, I instantly know that there is something I'm supposed to learn from it. Or sometimes I just get reinforcement of the lessons I've already learned (can never get too much of that).
In the movie, I heard: "Anonymity doesn't concern me, embarrassment does."
This hit home with me because I have been arguing with myself about participating in certain activities which would allow me to be vulnerable to other people knowing things about me that I wouldn't necessarily want the whole world to know, least of all my children.
It also reinforces the fact that I do not want to live my life in obscurity. I feel very natural being in front of a group of people and being the center of attention. But I have to temper that with a bit of self-control so as not to embarrass myself.
And then after the movie, they had interviews with the actors and such. The film maker who wrote the story had advice to give to future film makers. But it applied to my Life and Path as well:
"Write what you know. The most interesting stories are unique to YOU and no one can write it as well as you."
And, "Please yourself first and an audience will come."
This one affirmed that I am on the right track as far meeting the right people who can help me achieve my Soul's purpose. I am done sitting on the fence. I am who I am and when I am functioning as a complete person by keeping all parts of me happy, the "teachers" that can help me evolve appear.
This past Sunday morning, I was looking for a "warm and fuzzy" movie to watch. Watching movies is what I do on the weekends that I work and the boys with are with their father.
I browse many many movie channels and just happen upon whatever strikes me at that moment. Today it was Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory.
Sometimes, when I'm not really even paying attention, when I'm in "the zone", as I call it, I can "hear" messages and get meanings without realizing it. This usually happens when I've posed a question to the Universe and she is answering.
I believe that we are given clues to the answers we seek, but most of time we are just not "tuned in". I believe that our Guides get us these answers in whatever way is easiest to reach us. For me, it's movies and music, as I spend the majority of my free time (HA!) listening to music or watching TV/movies.
It's funny because I loved this movie as a child, wishing with all my heart that someone would come along and whisk me away to a fantasy land to escape my reality which was miserable.
So, this is the Wisdom I attained from Willy Wonka (song lyrics and dialogue). Take it for whatever you wish.
WE ARE THE MUSIC MAKERS. AND WE ARE THE DREAMERS OF DREAMS.
“Come with me, and you’ll be in a world of pure imagination. Make a wish and you’ll see into your imagination. We’ll begin, with a spin, traveling in the world of my creation. What we’ll see will defy explanation.”
“If you want to view Paradise, simply look around and view it. Anything you want to, do it. Want to change the world? There’s nothing to it.
“There is no Life I know to compare with pure imagination. Living there, you’ll be free if you truly wish to be.”
“If you want to view Paradise, simply look around and view it. Anything you want to, do it. Want to change the world? There’s nothing to it.”
“There’s no Earthly way of knowing, which direction we are going.” “There’s no knowing where we’re rowing, or which way the river’s flowing.”
"YOU SHOULD NEVER EVER DOUBT WHAT NO ONE IS SURE ABOUT."
So shines a good deed in a weary world.
A little nonsense now and then is relished by the wisest men.
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