I was waundering around and stumbled upon a website for MySpace comments that is called "Fuck the Fake" - here's an example:
So I had to check it out - I don't like the quote too much but it rings true to my current mantra: "DO IT TRUE!"
That mantra was courtesy of the movie "The Banger Sisters" - love that movie! Goldie Hawns character is so ME! Well, except for the fake boobs - LOL!
So why this mantra at this moment? I've had a new guy in my life for the last 3 weeks and in the last 10 days or so, I've noticed "psycho moments" in my thinking patterns where I am "wondering" if I should do something or say something.
I HATE THAT!! And I will not tolerate that thinking pattern! I'm angry at myself for still having it, but yet, I embrace it too because it reminds me what I used to be like.
The most recent "psycho moment" I called my friend Sonya and told her to please please repeat this mantra to me so that I will just DO whatever the fuck it is that I want to but am concerned about what he will think of me. Just talking to her empowered me enough to just do it. Which also entailed me telling him all about the "psycho moment" and he said he gets it. I'm even going to enlist his help (Spiritual Succubus, remember?)!
When we first re-connected, we made the agreement that, no matter what, we will always say what we are thinking - without wondering if we should or not! HOW COOL IS THAT?
He actually pushed me that night - he knew I wanted to say something but stopped myself and he forced me to - and guess what? The fucking world didn't come crashing down around me AND he's still around! HOW FUCKING COOL IS THAT??
FUCK THE FAKE!!