I only have 2 weeks off school and a lot of projects to complete. This wasn't necessarily on my 'To-Do' list but a distraction led me to do and I'm very glad I did.
I began with cleaning my Yahoo Messenger contacts. People I haven't chatted with in a long time (years for some) - gone. Next I moved onto my email address books. Gave them a good cleaning. Next were my email folders.
I'm an organization freak so every person that I've ever had multiple emails with has their own folder with all correspondence. If it's in my regular email, I forward it to my Yahoo Mail so I know it will always be there - anal? YES! So, I started with Yahoo folders.
I completely got rid of one folder that had over 15 letters in it (although I did have to save some of the racier stories we exchanged!). I moved to the next person with no intention of deleting any of them because he is still in my life though very much on the sideline. I started reading some of our early correspondence.
As he and I were getting to know each other, I had an instant comfort level that allowed us to reveal our deepest thoughts about ourselves and our world. I was amazed to realize that I knew myself pretty well back in 2005 only I just didn't know it. I always seemed to be searching for some elusive 'thing' that would give me great insight into myself.
Have I changed in the last 4 years? YES! But those thoughts and aspects of myself that I revealed back then are still there, I've just become much more comfortable with them and I no longer question them.
No, a person should not spend their present looking into their past, but it is nice to look back and not only see how far you've come but to see that you maybe didn't have that far to go to begin with!
More cleaning tomorrow night at work!