I needed to relax so I opened myself up to vibrations this morning after work. The last 2 weeks, I've been constipated - spiritually, that is. I didn't go out with the girls last weekend and I'm thinking I probably should have - I should have been "bad".
I've finally acknowledged that my sexuality is one facet of my personality that needs to stay satisfied if I am to maintain being a complete happy person. I've had a 2 week dry spell in that area.
I was having a bit of online, innocent fun with the pen pal but that seems to have fizzled. I tried, and I'll wait (never patiently!), but in the meantime, I'M NOT HAVING ANY FUN, DAMMIT!! So... I got constipated.
Add hormones to that and you've got a lot of room for negative energy to enter! And the kids - no the youngest - God grant me patience! And work - and school starting and money and the business - CALGON TAKE ME AWAY!
I called my girlfriend and told her we HAVE to go out next weekend! And then, I sat down to watch this week's episode of Saving Grace.
It was all about Tantric Sex and open relationships. Very interesting - of course, there's a murder to be solved as well! So, Grace is studying up on Tantra and in pops her Angel "Earl". I'm going to try to quote his words as he is talking about Tantra, Hinduism and religion in general. It was awesome. And contained in it was my Angel's message for me concerning my sexuality. Just simple confirmation about the thoughts that were in my head. Energy attracting energy.
I just went to see if I could find the quotes in text and found this instead (about the show when it first came out and about the character of Grace):
"She's a whole person," Hunter said. "So in thinking about someone's sexuality, it's an integral part of who they are every day, every month, every year of their lives, and this is an integral part of the exploration that we're making of Grace."
BAM! Could it get any more obvious?
So, on to the "It's NOT wrong" topic...I have learned so much from this TV show! I was even just reminded that I'm a member at a blog called "Embrace your Grace" - and boy does that not tell me something! I need to embrace the parts of me that get me closer to God. Period.
Here's the episode in a nutshell (from the blog):
The Eastern tradition of Tantra helped shape this episode. When Grace meets William Drugh, the architect who incorporates Tantra principles into his life, Grace is immediately intrigued, inciting her to reflect on her own sexuality.
Inevitably, Grace ends up in a discussion with Earl about sex where she poetically explains sex is about sharing and coming alive—a creation between your partner and you. Rather than being judgmental and possibly surprising to some of you, Earl declares Grace’s description to be beautiful. “Maybe even what God had in mind when he created Adam and Eve.” Earl goes on to tell Grace, “God made you to search for the ones who lean into the table. The live ones. He gave you a big appetite girl. And sent me along to mix up the menu.” Earl’s conversation with Grace demonstrates how Grace and Earl’s relationship is evolving. He’s not condemning Grace for her voracious sexual appetite, but rather serving as her guide in this crazy human existence. What are your thoughts about where Grace and Earl’s relationship is headed? Do you prefer it when Earl appears to be more judgmental of Grace?
WOW! Can the Universe now send me one of those "LIVE" ones???? Or a few - wink, wink???? I am SO going out next weekend!!
And finally, what Earl says about sex and religion:
Grace asks him how he feels about sex. He says, "Well, I think it's a sacred gift. Grace says, "the Catholic church says that you can only open it to make babies." Earl says, "Not true. Lotta hogwash out there about sex and religion. Not one major religion thinks sex is bad. But some Eastern beliefs view sex as a way of getting closer to the Divine." He asks Grace what she thinks about sex:
Grace answers, "You're alive! You feel your blood get hot, everything gets hot and you come alive. And you share that - you give that to your partner and you receive it and FEEL it. And this moment is a creation between the two of you."
Earl thought that was beautiful. So do I. Earl says, "maybe THAT's what God had in mind when he made Adam and Eve."
Sex is a great way to get closer to God - I just need to find one of those damn "LIVE" ones! I am SO going out this weekend!
____Time out on the stream of consciousness____
I must have needed more wisdom, because there was a plaque on the wall of the massage room in the TV show (I finally made it back to watch it). The plaque said, "the Individual IS God".
I have fully embraced my weirdness and uniqueness but I still spend time trying to find others like me. The current lesson is not only to celebrate the weirdness, but celebrate every single aspect of it!