I've been bad but I'm having so much fun! I really try to continually ask the Universe to send me exactly what I need to enable me to grow, to stay positive and happy. And I get it.
For a long time I argued with myself whether or not the passionate and sensual side of me was a positive thing or an unnecessary distraction. I really believe that all facets of my spirit need to stay happy in order to keep moving forward. And the Universe has sent me what I need.
Yes, I can be a bit dangerous but I stay safe. Last weekend I knew exactly what I was doing when I 'hooked' up with a buy I met in a club. Why can't men understand that women really can want nothing more than a physical, no-strings thing? Why do they think we have some hidden motive? I knew this particular guy was going to 'disappear' the second we got back into the club - I wanted him to! But when he actually did - without a word - I just had to laugh my ass off!
Last night, I was out again. Saw a great band that played 80's electonica music. I danced, I flirted, I felt great. My girlfriend and I picked up 3 'boys' - 20-somethings. I think one of them might actually turn out to be a semi-permanent boy toy - yippee for me! It's exactly what I need to stay happy. I'm definitely not looking for more than that.
I don't know how I managed to get so many Saturday nights off work - but I'm living it up while I can! It feels great to be back out in the world as a confident, attractive woman!