30 minutes ago, I had a conversation with myself... in front of the bathroom mirror (where I've always said, you can't lie to yourself).
I was talking to myself about where I'm going in life. WooHoo - I actually like looking at myself again! I guess I was a having a momentary crisis of direction.
Last night's reading assignment made me think that I would really really love being a crisis counselor. But then the whole "working with adults with traumatic childhoods" thing comes up.
So, I asked myself. And the instantaneous answer that came to me was really a prayer of sorts:
"Stop pressuring yourself! I give it to you - take me where you will."
In this sense, "you" is more or less the Universe as I call it; some call it God, take your pick. It works for me.
Then, I came back to watch this week's episode of ER. A patient asks Neela if she wants to know her fortune. She keeps running into different versions of the same Buddhist monk. Toward the end she has a rant that says she's supposed to have goals and how could she have come this far in her life and not know what she wants from it. Simon says, (lol) "Neela, you don't have to know exactly where you're going, you just gotta keep moving forward."
DID I JUST GET MY ANSWER FROM THE UNIVERSE??
But wait, there's more....
In the very last version of her day, Neela finally lets the little girl tell her her fortune. It says, "Your actions are the seeds of faith."