Echoes of Why

Embracing the Process!

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Embracing The Process!
By Bryan de Flores

The (not-always) graceful art of mental, emotional, physical and spiritual release.

Do you remember the first spiritual revelations you experienced when you became aware of multidimensional frequencies and other intelligences? The joy and elation that accompanied these insights finally allowed you to be free of all earthly constraints and soar to the heavens.



Sometimes few and far between, you continue to experience these ah-ah’s but have difficulty integrating them into your busy life. You often feel frustrated, confused and alone, not understanding that you are inches away from making a quantum leap in consciousness, into the 5th dimension of time and space.




The Mystery School of Life
How long is this going to take?



As we begin our spiritual path, one of the first things we should realize is how toxic we have become. We all have negative thoughts and unbalanced emotions within us that often manifest in ways which are very uncomfortable.


We also have subconscious sabotage programs and coping mechanisms working against us, prohibiting us from living our dreams. We have created and often been imprinted with these mechanisms to help us deal with the traumas and dramas in our lives.




However, in order to make our Ascension, these things will need to be looked at and dealt with. Unfortunately, when many people are confronted with their own issues they just don’t want to go there! They lash out, suppress or run pretending that everything is OK and fly up into the rafters of denial, never to be seen again.



The ancient Mystery Schools were set up in part to assist the participants in becoming conscious of, understanding and releasing the ties that bound them to the lower levels of the Earth plane.


This included the understanding that all illness and disease is caused by mental and emotional stress. It was understood that these imbalances would eventually begin to impact the health of the physical body, mind and spirit.


Releasing these imprints in a balanced, positive way was crucial to the longevity of the body, the stability of the emotions and the integrity of one’s thoughts. This process took many years until the initiate achieved mastery and completion.



In this modern age, many people have awakened to spirit and are now eager to move forward along the path. However, as well as experiencing great joy, one will encounter challenges, which will trigger those unprocessed emotions and thought forms.



One misconception is that it is an endless process and this could not be further from the truth. You are currently in the process of returning your body and consciousness to its original pattern of perfection. Therefore all genetic and energy frequencies within you are resetting themselves, permanently.



Imagine never feeling anger, stress, depression etc. for the rest of your life! Negative emotions have been important tools for learning about ourselves, but that time is finished. We are now making a quantum shift into a reality that does not utilize negativity as a tool for growth.



So kiss those negative emotions goodbye, thank them and let’s move on. It is so important to be open to the idea that there are some things within you that will need to be acknowledged and addressed. Each time you properly process these imbalances they will be gone forever.



If you are open and not in denial when your stuff is triggered, the process will be easier. If you are in denial, challenging and sometimes painful experiences will continue to manifest in order for you to clear these issues. Remember, everything that has been suppressed must come up to the surface to be dealt with!



Our wonderful home Earth is also going through the process of returning to its original paradise state of being. All the current global challenges and issues we see manifesting around us are but the last remaining distorted planetary imprints which are just now coming up to the surface to be cleared.



In a few years this process will be completed, the transformation will be swift and all shall be changed in the twinkling of an eye! Bottom Line: If you initiate the procedure consciously, spirit will not have to manifest an external experience in order for you to clear it! And when you are confronted with your own issues, don’t feel bad or guilty, just own up to it and move on!




The Tyranny of the Mind
data data data data data data data data data data


There are many techniques and procedures available to assist us in working through our own issues. Lengthy processes are a thing of the past in most cases.


Question: Wouldn’t you rather shift a thought form or emotion in 3 minutes rather than have it linger for 5 years?



The energy is moving too quickly now and many of the old slower analytical
methods are no longer working. Energetic processes work more quickly to re-pattern our thoughts and emotions, as they work from the soul
level.



They override the mental confusion and human personality and go directly to the Higher Self for instruction. The key to this process is powerful, positive intention! Sometimes this type of process cannot be explained it just needs to be experienced and trusted!



Energy processes work by the Universal principal of homeopathy: When you change the energy (vibrational patterns), you change the manifestation of the matter. Many processes are so mentally/intellect or etherically oriented they do not fully integrate into the consciousness.

Also, some people who are intellectually oriented tend to process only in the mental body. I have noticed this in many of my classes. People will say that they have already cleared a particular issue, but it is still there, bigger than life!


Yes, maybe they did process it mentally but did not fully integrate it into their emotional body and energy field. Also, there may be many layers of the issue that can only be cleared through full emotional integration.


If a procedure relies too heavily on mental data rather than personal connection and integrated intuitive understanding, you are more than likely going to walk away with a heavily processing mental body and very little integration. Besides, all data does is satisfy the lower mental body and too much data is often very confusing and will block intuitive channels.


When you are attending, a class be aware there are many important energy transmissions being given on multiple levels and the data or script being offered is probably the lease important. Oftentimes you integrate teachings and healing energy better when the analytical mind is bypassed. As a teacher, I always tell people beforehand that not everything that is happening can or will be explained.



After all, one cannot experience the fullness of God through definition alone!
My accelerator images are a perfect example of this. They heal and activate the individual through soul-level energy transmissions, which bypass the analytical mind allowing total integration.



Preparation and Maintenance



Before attending a class, prepare yourself for full integration through verbal intention and meditation. During the session, know that if you do not understand something mentally that’s OK, you are receiving it telepathically or energetically and will understand it at another time. After the session make time for yourself to contemplate and enjoy the energy before performing any mundane tasks.



It is also good to take a shower or bath after an initiation or Ascension session to clear any residue or dross from your field. Below is a list of things you can do each day, which will make your process easier. Conscious processing will allow you to understand and clear interference patterns with lightning speed, ease and grace.



This in turn will change the way you feel, think and live. From this point each day, you will create new perspectives and make frequent, fully integrated shifts in consciousness. You will become aware of what you are thinking and doing in each moment and will always make choices that are in alignment with your highest good.



Integral to this process are affirmations or prayers, which reverse all of the negative verbal and unconscious mental confusion during the day. After doing these for a short time you will notice that you are no longer manifesting negative thoughts and will be walking through doors that were previously closed to you.



For example, if you say “ I never have any money, I am always in debt,” you will counterbalance it with “ I am financially independent”. You may not understand how
these changes can occur with your present consciousness. This is due to lots of negative and limiting programming that you need to get rid of.. Using the affirmations for just a few minutes each day will minimize and eventually clear all negativity and judgment. They will also help to create a building momentum toward a positive future.



You can use the affirmations during the day when negativity come up or just keep track of the issues and do it all in the morning. I have included a few affirmations below to assist you in moving ahead. Feel free to make up your own as you go, addressing current issues each day.



And remember, although thoughts are powerful things, the spoken word (sound) is even more powerful. Also, the affirmations must be felt and not just said. If they are not emotionally integrated, they will not work properly. For instance, if you say, “I am divine passion!,” you need to feel the PASSION!



If you need to look in a dictionary or refer to some other source to get a better understanding of some words, by all means do what ever it takes.


A Few Tips:


1. Set the energy each morning. By doing this you are determining
how the rest your day will be. If you start your day in peace and spiritual
connection, that will be the primary energy of the day. If you start
your day in negativity or confusion, well


2. Connect with your Higher Self, spirit guide, guardian angel and
God. Feel the connections strengthen each day so they may assist
you in your daily life. State the intention that everything you are
saying here for yourself is also for all of humanity and the planet.

3. Surround and infuse your body in a luminous mantle of Christ
White Light. This clears all negative or interference patterns within
and around you. This will also clear your dream body and bring you into
a state of balance and harmony. Also, surround all current challenges
in your life with the White Light and ask the angels to assist you
in balancing these energies.

4. Visualize a clear path of white light or tunnel ahead of you,
projecting through the whole day. This will surround every person,
place and thing you will be encountering for the rest of the day.
It also neutralizes negativity and removes unforeseen obstacles.

5. State your affirmations for the day. Ask that all unconscious issues
and imbalances are brought into your conscious mind, so that you may
have the opportunity to clear them within yourself rather than experience
them externally.


6. Express gratitude to God and all assisting energies.

7. Close each day with a blessing and some deep breaths, which will
assist in relaxing and releasing any stress from the body.


Affirmations


I am the embodiment of joy, harmony and passion!
I am divine integrity, honesty, compassion and patience!
I am open to divine guidance, which brings me great wisdom, prosperity
and abundance!
I am creating and living my dreams in every moment!

Another powerful affirmation, which I have used, is “Each day, in every way, I am getting better and better and better…. Say this over and over again, 15 times in the morning and at night. It will reverse any negative programming regarding your self-image.


After the Storm!



During your earthly spiritual journey, choose a diverse range of processes and teachers (guides). This will provide you with many perspectives and allow you to embody a diverse range of spiritual frequencies.


Also, choose experiences that will shift you and give you new perspective and not just make you feel all warm, fuzzy, and safe! Most of all have fun and don’t take everything personally! Soon, all of the processing will be over and we will be able to complete our Ascension’s with dignity and grace. We will all experience ourselves as magnificent spiritual stewards of this planet!


May you be blessed with patience and clarity as you complete your wonderful, abundant, incredible journey into the 7th Golden Age of Enlightenment!
www.Bryandeflores.com
Welcome to the doorway of a full Awakening,
I wish you much love and light on your journey.
Loving you loving me,
Awakened777
ONE!

Now this is just damn freaky!

The new guy:

I thought it was "interesting" when we were going to and from the haunted house that we 'discovered' that we both had ties to Brecksville - the city. Cataloged that!

And again just now on the phone. Not only realizing that he has connections to my past pre-PTSD life,  but that are there are other similarities from later in my life - especially associated with things as recent (20 years) as my ex-husband. Interesting...

He doesn't "get" other men - I don't "get" other women. This makes me really curious. I wonder if our Souls knew each other previously, in another incarnation, as the opposite gender. The comfort level is practically other-wordly.

I fully believe, and stand behind, the belief that the "second chance lessons" in life have the MOST to teach you!

I want to believe so badly...SO LISTEN - listen to the wind of my Soul!

A LOT going on in my life. For the past few years, for various reasons and through many avenues, I have been focused on finding someone "compatible" with me. I haven't felt as if I "needed" someone for many years. And then, suddenly, when I got happy, I realized it would be nice to share this crazy-ass ride with another person and that it was something I desired. It was actually quite surprising because I really am happy being free & single and I do not feel as if anything is "missing" in my life.

So WHY, when what I ask for actually comes along, (and there's a downright freaky level of comfort with the entire thing), do I still have the slightest urge NOT to trust it???? Again, I hate it that this part of me still exists! I haven't had to fight with negative voices in my subconscious for a very long time! I'm much stronger now, much more conscious now, of where those thoughts eminate from, and I'm much better at telling myself to "SHUT THE FUCK UP"!!!

So, I'm finally catching up on some TV - a much lower priority in my life now than in the recent past. Watching this week's episode of Flash Forward (awesome show, awesome premise!). Japanese symbol comes up (God, I love my symbols!): it means, simply, "Believe".

'Nuf said.

So, my pain-in-the-ass-overthinking brain wants to know if it's my subconscious 'attracting' these "messages" - but then I, once again, tell myself to "SHUT THE FUCK UP" and say aloud,"does it really matter??"

 

Well, duh!?

I was just catching up on So You Think You Can Dance - had it on pause for an hour while I ditzed around on MySpace and went where the floe took me. Listening to the wind of my Soul  - LOVE THAT!

I just now hit "play" on the TV and the song that the dancers are performing to is "Maybe God is Trying to Tell You Something" from The Color Purple! (It always comes back to dance with me!)

Well, DUH! When isn't the Universe telling me something??? No "maybe" about it - but you have to listen and NOT attach any human expectations or preconceived perceptions to the message. That's not always easy because well, we're HUMAN!!

But, when you get in touch with the innate divinity within you, you simply don't have to do that because it just flows - smoothly and comfortably.

I'm putting this on my frig!

Spicecomments.com - Quotes Comments

Coolest song lyrics EVER - Love is My Religion

Ziggy Marley - Love Is My Religion

Why did I NOT know this song????????

"Love is My Religion" by Ziggy Marley

Love is my religion
Love is my religion
Love is my religion
I'll take you to the temple tonight

All my days I been searching
To find out what this life is worth
Through the books and bibles of time
I've made up my mind

I don't condemn I don't convert
This is the calling have ya heard
Bring all the lovers to the fold
Cause no one is gonna lose their soul

Hey
Love is my religion(love is my religion)
Love is my religion(love is my religion)
Love is my religion(love is my religion)
Hey you can take it or leave it
And you don't have to believe it

I don't want to fight
Hey let's go fly a kite

There's nothing that he can't cure
And I'll keep you in my arms for sure
So don't let nobody stop us
Free spirits have to soar

With you I share the gift
The gift that we now know

Oh
Love is my religion(love is my religion)
Love is my religion(love is my religion)
Love is my religion(love is my religion)
I said you can take it or leave it
You don't have to believe it

Well I'm done searching now
I found what this life is worth
Not in the books did I find
But by searching my mind

I don't condemn I don't convert
This is the calling have ya heard
Bring all the lovers to the fold
No one is gonna lose their soul

Love is my religion(love is my religion)
Love is my religion(love is my religion)
Love is my religion(love is my religion)
Hey you can take it or leave it
You don't have to believe it
Love is my religion(love is my religion)
Love is my religion(love is my religion)
Love is my religion(love is my religion)
So you can take it or leave it
Now do you believe?

 

 

Fuck the Fake!

I was waundering around and stumbled upon a website for MySpace comments that is called "Fuck the Fake" - here's an example:

So I had to check it out - I don't like the quote too much but it rings true to my current mantra: "DO IT TRUE!"

That mantra was courtesy of the movie "The Banger Sisters"  - love that movie! Goldie Hawns character is so ME! Well, except for the fake boobs - LOL!

So why this mantra at this moment? I've had a new guy in my life for the last 3 weeks and in the last 10 days or so, I've noticed "psycho moments" in my thinking patterns where I am "wondering" if I should do something or say something.

I HATE THAT!! And I will not tolerate that thinking pattern! I'm angry at myself for still having it, but yet, I embrace it too because it reminds me what I used to be like.

The most recent "psycho moment" I called my friend Sonya and told her to please please repeat this mantra to me so that I will just DO whatever the fuck it is that I want to but am concerned about what he will think of me. Just talking to her empowered me enough to just do it. Which also entailed me telling him all about the "psycho moment" and he said he gets it. I'm even going to enlist his help (Spiritual Succubus, remember?)!

When we first re-connected, we made the agreement that, no matter what, we will always say what we are thinking - without wondering if we should or not! HOW COOL IS THAT?

He actually pushed me that night - he knew I wanted to say something but stopped myself and he forced me to - and guess what? The fucking world didn't come crashing down around me AND he's still around! HOW FUCKING COOL IS THAT??

So....

FUCK THE FAKE!!

I just found the meaning of life!!

I was cruising the 'net and was led to a site called "Listen to My Soul Song (Ananda Sangha). I bookmarked for further inquiry tonite at work.

Then I was led to a Yahoo question about the destination in life. There was a reply from someone who said it so succinctly. It explained "Ananda" and now I want to check out the other site now!

"The destination of life is to merge onself onto the supreme consciousness that is expressed in all the human beings in unit form.
This thing will give you the "Ananda" (the infinite pleasure) which everybody seeks in one or another form.
Death is just an stage and u can say a junction before which the consciousness expressed in you is in your body (the physical form) and after which either it goes onto another physical form or may unite with the supreme consciousness.
supreme consciousness often people refers to so called God.
and more scientifically it is not the thing to say and listen try to feel the thing....Go for finding your inner secrets...."

Getting to know me...

These are things that I have learned about my place in this life, at this time:

"Old souls are often hedonistic and sensual, however, and can have a bawdy sense of humor. Old souls are often androgynous (having balanced masculine and feminine characteristics), and occasionally bisexuality is a part of their lifestyle. Gender identification is often weak in this Age because of subconscious contact with the whole psyche, which includes both masculine and feminine characteristics. What the Old soul seeks in romantic relationships is a "soul mate" — someone to whom he relates on a soul level. This might be someone else with whom he has spent many lifetimes, or another soul in his own Entity. The drive for this is so strong that it could be described as a compulsion."

Of the seven roles, or "types" of Souls (Server, Artisan, Warrior, Scholar, Sage, Priest, King) we can be, I am The Priest (highlights in blue are especially true for me):

The Priest Role 

The Priest role is also one of Inspiration, like the Server. But the kind of inspiration for which the Priest is a channel is to lift others up from their lowly condition, to inspire the people of the world to higher aspirations, to provoke people to noble virtues, and to raise the consciousness of mankind. In the Positive Pole of Compassion, the Priest feels sympathy for the psychological suffering in the souls of others, and seeks to alleviate it by encouraging them to find their way out of it.

If not in the actual ministry or priesthood, then another favorite life role that occupies many Priests is psychology, such as in counseling or psychiatry. Here they can apply their natural desire to heal to the task of healing the minds and spirits of their clients. Priests are very big on mental health — happiness, fulfillment, and positive attitude.

All Priests have a feeling that they have a Mission in life — a cosmic or divine Destiny. They sense that they are guided by the hand of God (whether they call It this or not) to show others the way to Truth.

No matter what kind of relationship a Priest is in, he will always desire to heal the mind and spirit of his partner. In this connection, like Servers, Priests often give sex as a healing service. (HeHe)

Priests view the whole world as their congregation. They reach down toward others and offer them illumination. They look up to God for their illumination. Priests are the shepherds of mankind, caring for their flocks, watching over them, helping them to grow to maturity. Their purpose in life is to break bonds and restraints which hold people back from fulfilling their potential. One of their favorite sayings might be, "You can do better than that." Priests point out the path to righteousness, and illumine it with supreme truth. If he is not behind the pulpit, then he is up on his soap box — preaching, exhorting, campaigning, crusading, proselytizing, provoking, and evangelizing.

Another significant factor in the consciousness of Priests is their emphasis on prosperity consciousness. They regard the universe as full to overflowing with the abundance of God. They proclaim that this richness is our natural inheritance — we should claim this plentifulness as our own. There is ample for all, and more, they say.

Like a person with the Goal of Growth, a Priest takes advantage of opportunities for greater experience. He promotes his development or that of others beyond their natural limits. He aspires to higher potentials and ever-increasing progress. Almost as if he was in the Passion Mode, a Priest behaves with freedom of expression and intensity of experience. His life is an open book, and he has a buoyant enthusiasm for life.

Like a Spiritualist, the Priest sees the whole universe as a manifestation of the glory of God, working out a Divine plan, ever evolving to a finer and higher state. He always looks on the bright side, and sees the world as miraculous. He regards every event as a propitious sign from Providence, which is ever looking down on him. With sensitivity and reverence the Priest is heartened and cheered up by events in the world. He is fascinated and awestruck at the wonders he beholds. Everything is an uplifting experience. A number of famous individuals have been or are Priests, and obviously so.

John Calvin (Protestant Reformation), Saint Dominic (founder of Dominican monks), St. Francis of Assisi (Catholic theologian), Joan of Arc, Jesse Jackson (Reverend), Carl Jung (psychologist and mystic), Abraham Maslow (psychologist), Oral Roberts (evangelist), Carl Rogers (psychologist), Martin Luther King, and Fred Rogers (children's TV show host).

The caring and enthusiastic inspiration of the Priest lovingly challenges us to seek fulfillment and evolution in our lives.  Priests have an uncanny way of making us unafraid of the things that scare us, and they help us face our fears with optimism and a greater resolve.  

Priests instinctively feel compassion for others, and this compassion can sometimes be seen as a loving light that seems to radiate from their faces.  When a Priest gazes into your space, it's almost as if they can see into the deepest reaches of your soul; effortlessly reaching inside of you if they wanted, and healing wounds you didn't even realize existed.  Priests seemingly have this natural ability to make connections with people that no other role can emulate.  

Natural healers, Priests have a special gift for channeling huge amounts of healing energy. In this regard, the mere act of being in the presence of a Priest can sometimes be highly therapeutic. Genuinely warm and nurturing, Priests are passionately interested in the spiritual growth of their subjects, and can therefore be masterful in inspiring people to step beyond their own self-imposed limitations to embrace life more fully.  

Priests are naturally at home in front of large groups of people, and can single handedly draw a spellbound crowd into profound levels of emotional awakening.

Overall, Priests are emotional, high spirited, and brimming with energy, and they approach life with determination and purpose.  Priests are truly on a mission. They are usually late to bed and early to rise, and rarely does a day go by when they don't find a way to either improve themselves or the people around them.  This can lead some Priests to become run down from the unwavering intensity of their zeal.  Although they may grow impatient with those who seem hopelessly stuck in the self-inflicted sands of inertia, (I’m working on this one!) the hallmark of the Priest is still compassion, and if we only learn to listen to their healing words and utopian visions, that shining star that has seemed so impossible for us to reach might one day become attainable. 

Awakening

AWAKENING TIP:

LET US MAKE A DISTINCTION BETWEEN ACQUIRED KNOWLEDGE AND REVEALED KNOWLEDGE.

ACQUIRED KNOWLEDGE IS THE INFORMATION THAT WE ACCUMULATE DURING THE COURSE OF OUR EVERYDAY EXPERIENCES OF LIFE.

BUT WHEN WE BEGIN TO VIEW LIFE THROUGH THE ANTIPODAL STANDPOINT (SEEING THROUGH THE EYES OF GOD) THEN WE ACCESS AN INBORN, INTUITIVE, REVEALED KNOWLEDGE THAT EXISTS IRRESPECTIVE OF THE HUMAN CONDITION.

MEDITATION IS THE ART OF MOVING BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN TWO PERSPECTIVES THE HUMAN AND THE DIVINE, DOWNPLAYING ONE LEVEL IN ORDER TO HIGHLIGHT THE OTHER.

EVENTUALLY, WE WILL LEARN TO EXTRAPOLATE MEANING FROM THE SYNTHESIS OF THESE DIFFERENT LEVELS.

THE STATE OF AWAKENING.

THE CULMINATION OF THE SPIRIT'S JOURNEY OF AWAKENING IS NOT JUST RETURNING TO ITS ORIGINAL STATE.

INSTEAD, IT IS HOW THE SOUL HAS EVOLVED THROUGH ITS PASSAGE ON EARTH: WHAT MEANING HAS BEEN EXTRACTED FROM ITS EXPERIENCES?

 WHAT ARCHETYPAL QUALITIES HAVE UNFOLDED AS A RESULT OF THE IMMENSE DIFFICULTIES IT HAS ENDURED AND THE UNIQUE WAY EACH SOUL'S UNFOLDMENT HAS CONTRIBUTED TO THE EVOLUTION OF THE UNIVERSE ITSELF.

Thank you Awakened777 from MySpace!

Enter Venus, Love!

THE VENUS TRANSIT: A CALL FOR GLOBAL ONENESS

Enter!




The darkest hours of night come just before the dawning of a new day. There is no question that Earth faces a tremendous crisis today.., a painful “dark night of the soul”, even the possibility of catastrophic obliteration.

Yet, according to the prophecies and calendars of many ancient traditions, this Age also represents a time of hope. We are moving into a time of evolutionary renewal, a time of global purifcation, even what some refer to as the dawning of a Golden Age!



The ancient Mayans developed a calendar syste..m that is very relevant to these times It can be seen as a cosmic timing code, and is prophetic in the sense.. that it reflects a deep under..stand..ing of long-term cycle..s of creat..ion. As evolutionary cycles of cosmic energies are absorbed into Earth"s electromagnetic fields via the Sun, human consciousness responds to these impulses in a predictable manner, following a cosmic pattern of dark and light.


The Mayan calendar describes the sequence and timing of these patterns.  According to this calendar, the year 2012 reflects the end of certain cycles of history based on duality and separation, and represents the birthing of a Golden Age of Enlightement.




Once we began to use the Mayan calendar to understand the deeper significance of world events today, this claim no longer seems as improbable as it may first appear Out of deepest darkness comes the greatest light In his studies of the Mayan calendar, Dr. Carl Johan.. Calleman points to a key event taking place now which might well serve to initiate this extraordinary opening to planetary light.





The planet Venus is rich in archetypal symbology It is often known as the Morning Star, the Bringer of Light.   It is related to love,human.. unity beauty, and oneness. On June 8, 2004, the path of Venus.directly crossed over the disc of the Sun, an eclipse lasting for the space.. of seven hours. The energies of Sun and Venus blend together, and as these blended radiations make their way into the Earth’s electromagnetic fields, it weaves the energies of love and unity into the mass consciousness of the planet, and potentially into the hearts of every man, woman, and child alive on Earth..!


Interestingly, Venus transits always come in pairs.  The second passage of Venus across the Sun’s disc takes place on June 6, 2012  The eight year period in between representsa “doorway” through which Unity consciousness will come to dominate the mass consciousness of the Earth.  Since this is a 130-year cycle, there are few humans alive today who have experienced this transit, yet it can be seen that every time this transit has taken place in human history, it has represented a new level of harmonization on the plane t It is interesting to note that the Taj Mahal, one of the greatest monuments to Love in human history, was built during the Venus Trans it of 1631-1639 AD!


The transition into Unity consciousness could be turbulent.As old structures.. of human.. consc..iousn..ess colla..pse, it may be accompanied by a degree of darkness and destruction.  This process should be seen in proper perspective .“When the light hits”, as Jose Arguelles, puts it, “the dark gets tough.”!


This current “door..way of Venus is especially significant because it remains open until 2012 AD, the completion our current cycle of human evolution Some referto this date as the end of linear time,or as the end of a period of human consciousness conditioned by separation and duality.The Mayan..s refer to this time as the Return of Quetzalcoatl, the Plumed Serpent, and look to this eight.year doorway as the time frame within which the mass enlightenment of humanity will take place

Kalki Bhagavan, a “mukti avatar” in South India, sees this doorway of Venus as the actual transition.. into the Golden Age. Although Venus transits happe..n on a regular basis, this is the first time in human histo..ry that an avata..r has been on Earth.. during this transit. Kalki says that rapid changes will take place on Earth beginning with June 2004.   His mission is to have 64,000 enlightened by 2010, and as they begin to spread it spontaneously over the next couple years, the entire planet will move into an enlightened state.


By the second Venus transit on June 6, 2012, Kalki promises that planetary enlightenment will be accomplished


Once this happens, Earth will become a paradise. The deep environmental, social, and political crises that plague us today will be instantly resolved. The human mind will undergo a structural change, and even our DNA will be transformed. As a new morpho genetic field of enlightened humanity replaces the thought sphere of greed, separation.., hatred and violence that pervades the Earth today, a new species will emerge.








We are calling people all over the world to observe the days leading up to this VenusTrans..it, June 6-8, as a time for opening to the bright impulse of cosmic energy that is streaming into the mass consciousness of Humanity.What are our highest dreams and hopes?  What is our greatest potential as divinely inspired humans? What can we creat..e together as we step into the “doorway” to the Golden Age?

June 6-8 is being promoted worldwide as the Call for Global Oneness, and we will continue building the momentum year after year until June 6, 2012Let us come together during this time in gatherings throughout the world to celebrate love and beauty, light and unity.   Let us work with these expansive cosmic energies to anchor them deep into the heart of Earth Mother, deep into the human collective consciousness.  Let us translate these energies into art, economics,culture, politics, education and ecology.  Let us bring trans..formation into every field of human endeavor

Let us pray, each in our own way, for the emergence of the Golden Age, for enlightenment for all, for peace, healing, and beauty on the planet! Le us pray for the unity of humankind

Please network this information widely
Please link up to
www. globaloneness. com for suggestions on what you can do, for further information on the Venus transit, to publicize any events you may wish to plan,or to receive information on events in your local.. area.

This will be a continually updated interactive website, and your input.. is welcome. We are invit..ing spiritual teachers from every.. religious faith,indigenous elders from everytradition, healers, artists, musicians,.. dancers, networkers, and organizers to join with us in cocreating the biggest spiritual event in human.history. As we move into this 3day global festival, we will be broadcasting live streaming images from Oneness Gatherings around the world.



Let us participate together to cocreate heaven on earth



By

Kiara Windrider and The Experience Foundation..
kiara@doorwaytoeternityom

Amusing Synchronicity!

Last night I listened to the Philospher's Notes on Ken Wilber because I was reading about his thoughts related to Transpersonal Psychology. Brian Johnson, the coolest-guru-ever, who started Philosopher's Notes, had reminded me to look it up. After listening and also checking out Ken Wilber's Integral Institute, I wrote back to Brian stating that I need to get to Berkeley, California (I have Palo Alto, CA planned already which is 1 hour away).

Then, I get in my car and the 90's channel is on Sirius radio. The song, "California Love" is playing. I thought that was kind of cute -no big deal. Until the next song came on and it was "HippyChick" - my cyber name on Facebook, MySpace, and just about everywhere!!

All I could do was laugh. I flipped the channel to the 80's station and "Faith" by George Michael was on. 'Nuf said!

I am a sponge!

I've only been out of school for 2 days and usually during breaks between semesters, I take 3-4 days to "veg out" and then accomplish my To-Do list. I could have been much worse now since this break is 10 months long :-)

But I'm not. I am more focused than I have ever been - that I can remember. I know that I 'feel' different at this point in my journey. I feel like I am steadily moving forward, learning what I need to and applying that knowledge to my spiritual practice. Funny thing is - I am not even consciously trying. I think that perhaps I have finally evolved to a new stage of development instead of just experiencing states of enlightenment - fully, and naturally, integrating all the wisdom and energy that I have encountered into my life.

There's a strange kind of natural flow to my life right now. I feel super-charged! And I REFUSE to go backward - back to the previous mode of transportation on my journey - where I glean wisdom, put it to use for a little while and then get spiritually constipated. The 3-steps forward, 2-steps back mode - NEVER AGAIN! I am positive, motivated and I have surrounded myself with the same kind of energy in other people. I am meditating (still learning this one), reading and actively evolving. Everything is falling into place perfectly.

So - today's quote that resonated with me when I read it (although credited to Heraclitus, I've also heard it quoted by Marcus Aerelius as well:

"The soul is dyed the color of its thoughts. Think only on those things that are in line with your principles and can bear the light of day. The content of your character is your choice. Day by day, what you do is who you become. Your integrity is your destiny - it is the light that guides your way." ~ Heraclitus

Onward & Upward....

Transpersonal Psychology

Ok, so I'm still in student mode (something I never hope to change!)....

I am getting my shit together to be to move to California next Summer and attend The Institute of Transpersonal Psychology. Explaining the transpersonal approach to people is difficult to say the least!

I received an email with a couple of articles attached from the college last week and am finally reading them. The more I read, the more sure I am that this is where I belong. Not getting a PhD in Transpersonal Psychology per se because the only thing that would allow me to do is research - tie me up in a loony bin! But a PhD in Clinical Psychology with a transpersonal approach.

There are at least 40 different definitions of transpersonal psychology:

Experiential humanistic psychology, psychology of consciousness; psychology of peak experiences; spiritual psychology; holistic development of the self... but this one describes it best:

"Transpersonal psychology is concerned with the study of humanity's highest potential and with the recognition, understanding, and realization of unitive, spiritual, and transcendent experiences."

 

School's OUT!

I officially have a bachelor's degree! And with a 4.0 GPA too!! I was really concerned about this last class but shouldn't have been, as usual. It only took me 20 years - considering I should have had this degree by the time I was 22 - if I hadn't gotten married instead! Oh well, everything in the proper time!

Now I can truly celebrate this weekend! And it's Halloween, which I just love!

I've got so many projects to complete that I've been putting off for 2 years. I also have an interesting man in my life these days - completely unexpected but very much welcomed! I did an Angel Guide reading tonite and it said that this is the time for me to revel in my sensuality, to stop feeling guilty about being naughty and to celebrate life and being ME!! That's nice to get confirmation on but it's not like I needed told to do that :-)

Now that I have more free time, I plan on writing a lot more too!

 

When the student is ready, the teacher will come...

I've always said that I am a better dance teacher than I am dancer. I'm realizing this phrase applies to my spiritual journey as well. If I am indeed a spiritual succubus, and this describes me pretty well, people come into my life for a short but specific purpose.

I'm realizing that the further I travel, the further I journey, the quicker I learn the lessons that I need to. And though it's sad to experience souls coming and going so quickly, it's uniquely exhiliarating at the same time.

So what do I do if the title statement is true in this case as well as in dancing? The students who may pass thru my experiences may not be ready for me. It's a fact that I've tried to accept lately and it has helped me learn the lesson of "letting go" - NOT something I have EVER been good at.

Doesn't mean I have to like it. It doesn't mean that I am not going to try to hold onto something that I should let go of. It doesn't mean that I won't keep pushing the student to learn what they need to. Stubborn, for sure, but I honestly wish every soul could gain enough personal wisdom to be able to find their bliss. And, the Universe knows that I am a Soul that needs a good brick upside the head when I'm not getting the hint that I should just let it go! Sometimes I just don't learn very efficiently - hence, the statement, "I'm a better Teacher than Student".

So much happening at this juncture in my life.

SO much to learn but yet SO much more to teach.

But it can hurt when the student is not ready, for they will exit my life even if the human part of me wants them to stay. 

What Tarot Card are you?

You are The High Priestess

Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.

The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.

Attracting my purpose....

I haven't written much lately - writing to no one in particular just doesn't motivate me these days. BUT... I was told last night that I need to write my brain droppings down!

Everything in my life lately has been about finding my comfort level with my purpose. Yes, the Law of Attraction is always at work, but I haven't been consciously working it. But it works any way - because my thoughts, my energy, everything has been focused on that. So... last night I realized that I have managed to attract exactly what I need - and that epiphany came to me like a lightning strike last night.

So, what is it that I've attracted into my life space?    STUDENTS!! 

Students who already have a foundational understanding of what it is that I have to teach - ones who have perhaps attracted a teacher into their life space!

It felt so good to just spew what little wisdom I've attained - and have them 'get it'!!

 

A new level of understanding?

"The more we resist it, the stronger it gets. Then it undermines our determination, sabotages our choices, and attracts more negative energy."

I was just now reading about the path to inner peace and I think I understand myself a lot more right now. And why now, more than ever, I finally feel that I am moving forward consistently. Instead of the usual 2 steps forward/1 step backward fashion that has been my spiritual evolution thus far. So, what's different now? I have finally embraced my human side, so to speak. I fully embrace my "Dark Night of the Soul".

"Very frequently, the deepest spiritual moments (the ones where we garner a big picture view of how we put shackles around our own progress) happen during moments where we have to confront our deepest fears and inbuilt prejudices, and overcome them in order to step into a new reality. Mystics talk of "the dark night of the soul" as being these kinds of moments."

READ: (borrowed from Life Without Limits website)

The Pollyanna spirituality that has gained a following is an attempt to get around Universal Principles, not a method to apply them.

A person who applies Universal Principles, is one that can maintain their integrity, positive attitude and courage, no matter what circumstances he may encounter and experience.

We are impotent to change what we refuse to acknowledge.
We lack the ability to make intelligent choices, if we refuse to objectively seek out information.
We will ultimately fail to Be positive, to make positive choices and to experience our potential and fulfillment, if we deny, avoid or bury our unpleasant emotions, our unwanted tendencies, our shadow self.

If we can greet our shadow self with understanding and courage, perhaps we will also understand and cease to judge others. And that would create an abundance of positive energy on this planet.

And wandering has led me here - to even more confirmation along the same lines:

"He who knows the Bliss of Brahman (divine consciousness)..does not distress himself with the thought "why did I not do what is good? why did I do what is evil?". Whoever knows this (bliss) regards both of these as Atman (self, soul), indeed he cherishes both as Atman. Such, indeed, is the Upanishad, the secret knowledge of Brahman."

Centering myself

I had forgotten just how much I love MySpace. Most of my friends there are all fellow humans trying to live at a higher level of consciousness. Very wise souls who post the best bulletins.

From these I'm led to many inspirational places. This morning, I'm watching 90 second inspirational videos on You Tube - nothing but soft music and random quotes. Here is my favorite from today's journey:

"To love a person is to learn the song that is in their heart - and to sing it to them when they have forgotten." ~ Anonymous

 

 

Today's thought...(from a friend)

"I don't believe that people create their own visions. Rather, I believe that visions are actually God's way of communicating with us."
~ Russell Simmons

Have you ever wondered where our desires come from? What makes one person long to travel the world while another wants nothing more than to settle down and raise a family? Our higher selves are constantly trying to guide us toward true fulfillment, which means that the only thing we really "should" do is trust the wisdom of our hearts by exploring our interests and following our bliss...

Blessings to you!

The past revisited...

Thursday night at work, I was going thru the list of patients having bloodwork the next morning and recognized the name of my first foster mother. She was anemic and needed transfusions. I drew her blood at 5am and she recognized me when I said "hi". I had talked to her on the phone last summer but I had not seen her since 1991.

I've recently written about wanting to visit her and her husband to thank them for all they did for me as a little girl. And to tell her that I finally understand myself and what she was dealing with. And that, more than anything, I wouldn't change one single, solitary thing about my life. My old counselor thought I was doing it for the wrong reasons but I truly do not feel there are any subconscious motivations here (and I'm pretty good at recognizing those). Me being me, I procrastinated about contacting her even after having a dream that I wouldn't get the chance. Thankfully, the chance fell into my lap.

I told her that I would stop in and visit before I started work Saturday night. I did and we had a nice talk. She thought it was funny to tell the nurse in the room that as a 3 year old I used to go up to men and list my skirt and ask for money! Gee, I learned a lot from my birth parents ;-) I remember doing that too - especially for pennies to put in the gumball machines!

We laughed about that one. We chatted about night shift, I told her I mostly do homework and that I am in school to be a Psychologist. She said "oh good, they need them out there" - meaning the kids who are in the foster care system. I'm still not sure I want to work with the kids though - that direction has yet to be determined.

She told me that I always gave the teachers a hard time in school. I told her that hasn't changed one bit! I told her to thank her husband for doing math flashcards with me every night and how that instilled a love of math. And that my brain was the only positive piece of self esteem I had as a child and I said 'thanks' for nurturing that. I also told her exactly how smart I am and she said my problem when I was a child was that I was too damn smart for my own good. I told her that my mouth always got me into trouble and it still does!

I told her I wished I had stuck with all the dance lessons she gave me as a kid. That it took ballroom dancing lessons in 1995 for me to discover just how huge a part dance plays in my life. That is literally changed my world. I told her I teach and I love it.

I told her that I was sorry I was such a messed up kid - that I wished "they" had known about childhood depression back then. I explained how it took me until the age of 30 to realize who I was and what makes me happy. And that I'm happier than I ever imagined possible. I showed her pictures of the boys.

We talked a bit about my birth family and her kids. She was missing her granddaughter's wedding reception as we spoke. I am off work today, but if she is still in-house tomorrow, I will stop in and see her.

I'm grateful for the opportunity to express my gratitude to her. I feel truly at peace with that part of my life. In a way, this opportunity allowed me to thank God for giving me that part of my life. I truly believe it happened just as it should have.

When I need a lesson, it's all about quotes...

So, Thursday night at work, I did a possibly-dumb thing and contacted someone I probably should not have. Although cathartic in a way, I still wonder at the motivation sometimes. Anyway, that led me to updating my FaceBook profile, in which the only thing I really did was add a shitload of quotes that I just adore. I've got hundreds saved all over this computer and it was fun reading some of them.

And some of them resonated differently this time. The much-needed lessons of the moment:

This one is not by any means where it started, but it is where I was led just now. “I (may) disapprove of what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it. […] Think for yourselves and let others enjoy the privilege to do so too."

It was actually the second time I saw that in the last 2 days. Not weird since I was just reading quotes - LOL - But... I was also just discussing challenges in class last night. As in, "challenge me, please! Let's see how fast I can totally crush it!"

The second occurrence of that quote came from a FaceBook link to a group for Psychology majors. And they also had this one:

"Yeah, I'm a psychology major...no, I can't read your mind
..................What can I say, I like the padded walls!" -- LMAO!!!

But the first quote that I found today was on this Psych teacher's Facebook profile (not a group). ""To the mind that is still, the whole universe surrenders"

The lesson the last month or so has been all about learning to meditate. I HAVE TO! I joked to the this guy that this Behavioral Analysis class was going to give me a cerebral hemmorhage! I have to learn to quiet this head of mine.

Best smartass answers of 2008

SMART ASS ANSWER #6

It was mealtime during an airline flight. 'Would you like dinner?' the flight attendant asked John, seated in front. 'What are my choices?' John asked. 'Yes or no,' she replied.


SMART ASS ANSWER #5

A flight attendant was stationed at the departure gate to check tickets. As a man approached, she extended her hand for the ticket and he opened his trench coat and flashed her. Without missing a beat, she said, 'Sir, I need to see your ticket, not your stub.'


SMART ASS ANSWER #4

A lady was picking through the frozen turkeys at the grocery store but she couldn't find one big enough for her family. She asked a stock boy, ' Do these turkeys get any bigger?' The stock boy replied, 'No ma'am, they're dead.'


SMA RT ASS ANSWER #3

The police officer got out of his car as the kid who was stopped for speeding rolled down his window. 'I've been waiting for you all day,' the officer said. The kid replied, Yeah, well I got here as fast as I could.' When the cop finally stopped laughing, he sent the kid on his way without a ticket.

 SMART ASS ANSWER #2

 A truck driver was driving along on the freeway and noticed a sign that read: Low Bridge Ahead. Before he knows it, the bridge is right in front of him and his truck gets wedged under it. Cars are backed up for miles. Finally a police car comes up. The cop gets out of his car and walks to the truck driver, puts his hands on his hips and says, 'Got stuck, huh?' The truck driver says, 'No, I was delivering this bridge and I ran out of gas.'

 SMART ASS ANSWER OF THE YEAR 2008 !!

A college teacher reminds her class of tomorrow's final exam. 'Now class, I won't tolerate any excuses for you not being here tomorrow. I might consider a nuclear attack or a serious personal injury, illness, or a death in your immediate family, but that's it, no other excuses whatsoever!' A smart-ass student in the back of the room raised his hand and asked, 'What would you say if tomorrow I said I was suffering from complete and utter sexual exhaustion?' The entire class is reduced to laughter and snickering When silence was restored, the teacher smiled knowingly at the student, shook her head and sweetly said, 'Well, I guess you'd have to write the exam with your other hand.'

A BONUS EXTRA

A woman is standing nude looking in the bedroom mirror. She is not happy
with what she sees and says to her husband, 'I feel horrible; I look old,
fat and ugly. I really need you to pay me a compliment.' The husband
replied, 'Your eyesight's good.'

 

Gently down the stream...

I haven't had a "wow" moment in a long time. It's been overdue. Yesterday was my 1 year surgiversary and I am so blessed. I've been socially starving for the last 2 months and getting depressed over it. Self-inflicted hell was what it was.. See, I said, "was". Thank God for my brain!!! I know exactly what my Soul needs in order to be happy. I need to shorten the duration of going without though!! (Me and consistently do not get along.)

As I sit and watch the season premiere of So You Think You Can Dance. If you know me, you'll know how much I love this show!! It is so full of positive energy and I've missed that!! I need that energy around me at all times and I can only by interacting with people. And, making them think about how they feel and feel about how they think.

Anyway, this is all about teaching. Back a few posts, I wrote about my NEED to teach.

15 minutes ago I was led to an online lecture about Abraham Maslow. And I went to get the link at Facebook and the 'wow' moment went nuclear. I ended up at the EduFire website. When you create an account, you have to choose:

First Time Here? Welcome!

I am a:
Student  (I want to learn from an online tutor)
Teacher  (I want to teach online for payment)

 

So was I led here to help me teach or to learn? I'll have to meditate on that one.

 

Or.. there could be that I don't really need the PhD to teach (as many smart people have said). I keep making excuses to fill out the paperwork. But what if I really don't have to? Then I wouldn't be debt until the day I become a natural reef - LMAO!! Note to brain:  YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE MEDITATING!!

 

I never had the ability to make people change and believe using ration and logic anyway. (And for the longest time that is the only approach to my fellow humans that I understood -childhood shit.) LONG story on the metamorphasis that has taken place (but a fun one, that's for sure!)  

 

Way back at the beginning of this post, I wanted to explain the 'wow'. Maslow: "What one *can* be, one *must* be." And hence comes that the feeling that I'm going to explode if I don't TEACH! I am going to the lecture! Check out http://www.philosophersnotes.com  Come on! It's his birthday today! Help him teach, for it is what he was put here to do.

 

If you've read this far and haven't had a seizure from all the colors :=) Thanks for keeping up with my lessons of today!

 

And now, back to our regularly scheduled programming: going back to dancing - it makes me happy.

And I'm back. (Terminator: Salvation was just okay and it was nice they payed homage to the originals.) Oops, no I'm not.

Okay, yes I am. So what were we discussing? Oh yeah, How do I get on with my purpose???? I'm the way, but daaaayyyyuuuummmm - I have NO PATIENCE!! Things just don't move as fast as I want them to! And then I get bored and lose interest and get spiritually constipated, then I have to go through this whole process of purging and re-learning the same damn lessons I already know. I WANT OFF THIS ROLLERCOASTER! (getting a Cedar Point season pass - woohoo!)

Seriously, everyone knows that I HATE REPEATING MYSELF!!! Fuck! Sorry (no I'm not), but I really need a good swift kick sometimes. What I call God bashing me upside my head with a 2 X 4!! Eventually, I'll get it. Why does LIFE have to get in the way of movement forward versus in a circle?!

You know, one just got me...

I haven't been watching TV much (except So you think you can dance and Saving Grace comes back the day after my birthday!) So my Angels have to communicate with me through music. And hindsight is awesomely clear.

Last night on the way to work, I heard The Eagles' "Wasted Time". No biggie, like the song.

But right now, I've got a song stuck in my head I heard this morning on the way home. Actually, a particular lyric:

"Oh, I'm so blind Oh, I'm blind
I wasted time Wasted, wasted, wasted time
Walkin' on the wire, high wire
But I must let the show go on

And I just now realized today's THEME! See letter to the pen pal years ago about wasting my talents but not having a clue what those were. You've come a long way, baby!"

And for confirmation the song lyric popped back in and screamed "I must let the show go on" ---

That spiritual kick in the ass I can always count on? YEPPERS!

I HAVE TO MOVE FORWARD. I have to stay on track. I need other people to help me. I consistently ask for that and the people that pop in and out or stay are all pretty damn cool. Would it be too much to ask for to have the help on a consistent basis? HA! I've never been consistent one day in my life - is that Karma?? A self-inflicted punishment? (Whoa, that was deep - Applied Behavior Analysis just ran through my head - finals week.) Perhaps it is. WTF???

I of all people know just how powerful the Law of Attraction is! Even at my lowest wallowing point, little Synchronicity would slip in to keep me from sinking. You won't ever convince that me we don't have Angels.

Oh - so, I'm wallowing but climbing out of it - (lyric: with a little help from my friends)... I was really stressed out over money and school. The school one was easy - write a sugary-sweet but bitchy letter to the professor, get the fuck over it and do a good job on her final paper.

The money one - never so easy. But I'm getting much better at trusting. And as soon as I hit solid ground, I changed my thinking and started trusting. Yesterday I got an email telling me my stipend has been mailed and I'm getting a check for $700!! See previous posts about The Law at work in my lfie.

HA - writing is my avenue of putting The Law to work for me too. As I'm writing it, my thinking patterns are positive and I start to attract. I was just led here:

Wayne Dyer's movie, "The Shift - Ambition to Meaning: Finding your life's purpose.

Do I sound mmildly manic? Or is it just my crazy astrological profile stuff :-)

 The Gemini/Goat is a firefly who flits about in others' lives out of sheer caprice; a tired pessimist who denigrates and disagrees with the world at large; or perhaps he's the eternally disappointed critic whose longing for perfection (in others, of course) leads him to drop acerbic comments as though they were rose petals. The Gemini/Goat is a bit of a lot of different things. You won't find many Goats running around loose. Goats need other people. All Goats require both company and guiding forces. Gemini is the mercurial sign: quick, volatile, fickle. So put these together. Dependency and fickleness. Like a smiling, chubby baby who's looking around for a change from his dull parents and leaps into the arms of almost anybody who passes his stroller in the street. Obviously, this versatile person makes a fabulous - if temporary - lover. When they find themselves in bed with one, they may well be thinking of the next or the last great lovemaking session. Butterflies in bed, they can think up the most ingenious sex games and...

Whichever it is, it's a fun ride most of the time! THANK YOU!

Today's Wisdom Quote

"I have learned, that if one advances confidently in the direction of his
dreams, and endeavors to live the life he has imagined, he will meet with 
success unexpected in common hours."
~Henry David Thoreau 

This was today's message from Renaissance Unity. Then, shortly after reading this email message, I was listening to the Bhagavad Gita Philosopher's Notes (mp3) and Brian also stated this same quote plus more:

"He will put some things behind - will pass an invisible boundary. New, universal and more liberal laws will begin to establish themselves around and within him. Or old laws will be expanded and interpreted in his favor, in a more liberal sense, and he will live with license of a higher order of being."

This goes back to the Law of Attraction. And even though I've seen it working in my life for the past couple of years, it's only been recently that I've achieved a level of Faith that has enabled the Universal Laws to take control of my life.

"Faith is expectancy" (Eric Butterworth). "When a person is devoted to something with complete Faith, he gains the object of his devotion" (Bhagavad Gita).

I have complete Faith that I will achieve, and am on the path to achieving, my Soul's purpose in this life.

And so it is.

I'm listening!

I learned a lot this morning. Thank you!

SOUL FUSION
***************
Infinity
Realized
*
Divinity
Crystalized
*
Brilliance Magnified
*
Illumination Testified
*
Immortality Actualized
*
Gods Glory Personified
*
Perfection Materialized

****************

SOUL FUSION

A new Myers-Briggs type? ENTP

I have taken a hundred or so different typology tests lately and I always come up as an ENTJ - understandable and cool in its own right. But, I stumbled upon this site and that blog (thanks to Anderson Cooper - my Gemini brother!) and ended up finding a typology that sounds an awful like the person I am when I'm meditating and listening to my Soul. All I can say is "WOW" and that this is the typology I need to live from all the time! Because, alas, in real life - my "J" always gets me in trouble!

Here are some highlights of this new type ENTP (who my new best friend Mary just happens to type as - very interesting!):

"Clever" is the word that perhaps describes ENTPs best. The professor who juggles half a dozen ideas for research papers and grant proposals in his mind while giving a highly entertaining lecture on an abstruse subject is a classic example of the type. So is the stand-up comedian whose lampoons are not only funny, but incisively accurate. SO ME!

ENTPs are usually verbally as well as cerebrally quick, and generally love to argue--both for its own sake, and to show off their often-impressive skills. They tend to have a perverse sense of humor as well, and enjoy playing devil's advocate. They sometimes confuse, even inadvertently hurt, those who don't understand or accept the concept of argument as a sport. TRUE!

ENTPs are as innovative and ingenious at problem-solving as they are at verbal gymnastics; on occasion, however, they manage to outsmart themselves. This can take the form of getting found out at "sharp practice"--ENTPs have been known to cut corners without regard to the rules if it's expedient (ask my boss!) -- or simply in the collapse of an over-ambitious juggling act. Both at work and at home, ENTPs are very fond of "toys"--physical or intellectual, the more sophisticated the better. They tend to tire of these quickly, however, and move on to new ones. It's called boredom, duh!

ENTPs are basically optimists, but in spite of this (perhaps because of it?), they tend to become extremely petulant about small setbacks and inconveniences. (Major setbacks they tend to regard as challenges, and tackle with determin- ation.) ENTPs have little patience with those they consider wrongheaded or unintelligent, and show little restraint in demonstrating this. Got in trouble for this at work last week! However, they do tend to be extremely genial, if not charming, when not being harassed by life in general.

In terms of their relationships with others, ENTPs are capable of bonding very closely and, initially, suddenly, with their loved ones. Some appear to be deceptively offhand with their nearest and dearest; others are so demonstrative that they succeed in shocking co-workers who've only seen their professional side. ENTPs are also good at acquiring friends who are as clever and entertaining as they are. Aside from those two areas, ENTPs tend to be oblivious of the rest of humanity, except as an audience -- good, bad, or potential. (Mary would agree with this completely - but it's NOT a bad thing!)

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A Functional Analysis-- by Joe Butt

Extraverted iNtuition

ENTPs are nothing if not unique. Brave new associations flow freely from the unconscious into the world of the living. Making, discovering and developing connections between and among two or more of anything is virtually automatic. Did I read that RIGHT? Me? Nyah - LMFAO! The product of intuition is merely an icon of process; ENTPs are in the business of change, improvement, experimentation. LOL!

The attraction Extraverted iNtuition has toward the real and physical amounts to a cosmic non sequitur: theory is drawn to practice. Such encounters are clearly puzzling. Both parties--the intuitor and the realist--are aware of a xenic quality in their meeting, with reactions ranging from recoil to reverie. See my previous posts about my old internal battle that I WON! **blowing raspberries**!

Introverted Thinking

Thinking is iNtuition's ready assistant, an embodiment of the sort of logic found in laws, boards and circuits. Thinking's job is to lend focus and direction to iNtuition's critical mass. The temporary habitations of changeling iNtuition are constructed of Boolean materials from Thinking's storehouse. Ultimately, Thinking is no match for iNtuition's prodigiousness. Systems lie in various states of disarray, fragmentary traces of Thinking's feverish attempts to shadow and undergird the leaps of the dominant function. Well shit, maybe the battle isn't over! One can only suppose that Thinking must continue to work during REM sleep pulling together iNtuition's brainchildren into integral wholes. Dreaming is the only thing that scares me but I KNOW I need to do it.

Extraverted Feeling

To the extent that Feeling is developed, ENTPs extravert Feeling judgment. As a result, it is not uncommon to find affability and bonhomie in members of this species. Tertiary functions are potentially utilitarian. Their limitations appear in their relative underdevelopment, diminished endurance, and vulnerability. ENTPs may harness Feeling's good will in areas such as sales, service, drama, humor and art. ENTP loyalty often runs high and can be hooked by those the ENTP counts as friends. Succubus - LOL!

Introverted Sensing

Like a tail on the kite of iNtuition, Introverted Sensing counterweighs these beings drawn to nonconformity and anarchy. These shadowy sensory forms, so familiar to SJ types, serve as lodestones which many ENTPs employ Herculean measures to escape. "Question authority! (then do exactly what it tells you)" sums up the dilemma in which ENTPs may find themselves by attempting to best the tarbaby Sensing. Occasionally acknowledging awareness of norms and abnormality could, in theory, be potentially freeing.

Additionally, I've noticed that ENTPs have the need to have areas of expertise/excellence/uniqueness in which one is second to none. I've never beaten an ENTP at his/her own game--not in the final analysis. ROFLMFAO!

The truth of our existence..

KNOW THE TRUTH OF YOUR OWN EXISTENCE "There is always a way pro¬vided by the Law of Life, God's Great Goodness and Forgiving Love, to correct every unsatisfactory and imperfect condition. The way lies right within one's physical self. 'BE STILL and know THAT I AM GOD!' No one and nothing can ever be per¬manently happy until they do know this, until they know TRUTH, particularly the TRUTH of their own existence — who they are, why they are here, from whence they came, and where they are go¬ing. Only the knowledge of THAT TRUTH brings peace and that sense of inner security of which we have spoken, that can never be disturbed by the constant, shifting scenes and conditions of our daily experience." by V. F. Angelday

 

Thanks for this, Awakened777

My new mantra...

I've had many mantras over the last few years, but this one is powerful and all-encompassing. It comes via Brian Johnson's Philosopher's Notes on The Power of Intention:

"I am creativity, kindness, love, beauty, expansion, unlimited abundance and receptivity."

Some of my friends and coworkers think I'm a little kooky when I adopt a new mantra. I print it on business cards and carry one with me at all times. I have one in my car, taped to the dashboard, I tape it to the back of my hospital ID badge. I carry one in my pocket and every time I touch it, I repeat it. I tape one to the refrigerator. I tape one to the back of my cell phone.

OCD? Perhaps. But it works. The more you see it, the more you say it and it actually gets hardwired into your brain and your way of thinking. IT WORKS!

What's your mantra? Check out the "Wisdom Quotes" category. Check out Philosopher's Notes (I've been following this guy since his two previous businesses!). When a little piece of wisdom resonates with you, adopt it. Go OCD with it! And sit back and watch how your life will change!

Namaste

Is this a gospel song? Halo.

Halo - Beyonce

Lyrics:

Remember those walls I built
Well baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
Woah...

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo)

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo

I just had a neat idea. What if, instead of greeting someone with "hello" you greet them with "halo"? It has the potential to instantly remind you, and connect you with, that person's Divinity!

Connecting to Intention: and looking back at how I DID!

I just had to go and pop in the video of The Power of Intention. I just HAD to!!

Dyer's Dozen for connecting with Intention:

1. Want more for others than you want for yourself.

-- I don't care about the $$ from my ex. It will still drive me nuts, but he doesn't need the stress of me. He's basically a good guy who needs his form of peace. So I'm letting it go.

2. Think from the 'end'. Begin to see yourself surrounded by the people, and the events, that you want.

I think I 'intended' my way to this point in my life. I can look back and finally see where all the pieces fit! I was just gathering the pieces - until NOW.

3. To be an appreciator in your life. Not de-preciator - increase your value. And what could be more valuable than connecting to Source?

Holy fucking WOW! WoW! This whole weekend has been about my connection to Source - to God.

4. Stay in rapport with Source energy. Stay in harmony with it.

I don't think I have much choice in this one - I intend it all the time.

5. Understand resistance. Every thought that you have that is outside of 'that which you emanated from' is resistance. Every unkind thought, every uncreative thought, every thought of fear - all resistance.

I'm pretty much done with resistance. Put a fork in it already!

6. Contemplate yourself surrounded by the conditions that you want to produce.

Looking back, I think I intended this very moment. I intended to move to the next level on my journey and I am surrounded with opportunities!

7. Understand the art of allowing - taking the path of least resistance.

I'm not sure I've got the hang of this one yet - LMAO! But I'm a ENTJ Goat! But it's all good because God knows that every so often Christine needs a 2x4 whack over the head with Synchronicity to get her attention!

Ok, Wayne just said to ask yourself if you're pulling energy away from Source or are you filters and doors? HELLO! I'm a succubus, remember! I'm pulling all the eenergy I can from Source! And Source keeps giving me more! How much fun is that!!??!!

8. Practice radical humility.

Working on this one. At this stage, I'm still in awe of ME. But as Emerson, it's the ego of the individual that accomplishes great things! Mary says, my tunnel vision is not a bad thing. I'm so focused on my journey for a reason! The more I focus, the faster I run. The faster I run, the more I learn. The more I learn, the more my Soul evolves. And more that happens, the more I can TEACH! But enough justification - I'm workin' on it!

9. Be in a constant state of Gratitude. For everything that shows up! And what could be more generous than that which has allowed you to come from Infinite Source, to this material world, and back again?

This gets better every day. I gives thanks for the beauty of my experience all the time. It's become a total mindset for me. Authentic gratitude is second-nature to me now. And THANK GOD for that! I think that if there is "one" of these 12 Dyer'isms that can instantly change your life, it would be this one.

10. Do not resolve a problem by condemning it.

I cannot shame myself into quitting the bad habits I have. I'm workin' on it.

11. Play the match game. Always ask yourself if you're matched up with the field of Intention. 

I haven't quite got the frequency I'd like to have!

12. Meditate. Make it a practice in your life.

A lot of lessons come back to this one for me. I have to find alternative ways to connect.. My version of mindful meditating can be exhausting but exhilarating too. But I haven't learned my lessons by being quiet. Who knows what wisdom awaits? But for me to slow down enough to get truly quiet, which I know I should do, I need a mentor. Or something to turn off my brain. There are only a few things that do. 

Wayne says everything comes in dichotomies - black/white, male/female, up/down, alive/dead, etc. What's the only thing that cannot be divided? Source. And silence. Divide silence, you have more silence. I need to go there. So it is.

My Dyer wisdom: "happiness is something you decide on ahead-of-time." And "when you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change."

"If you knew who walked beside you at all times on this path that YOU have chosen, it would be impossible to ever experience doubt or fear again." - A Course in Miracles.

And I will end there. Namaste.

 

 

Full circle.

This is HUGE!

I actually just finished a rough draft, stream-of-consciousness-letter to Dr. Wayne Dyer. My first, best teacher. I've been meaning to write it for 4 years and it was never the right time. With all the changes that have been occurring over the last 2 months, I guess it is finally the right time. I believe I am ready for whatever the next step is.

And the connection to Dr. Dyer was always there - he was the original catalyst on my journey. But, I'm only just now, right now, able to look back over the last 4 years and see how all the wisdom I have now was presented to me back then. But it wasn't the right time. I'm looking back (with full detail, thanks to my funky memory!) and really absorbingthe wisdom, whereas back then, I just read about the wisdom.

So, full circle. I feel like the last 4 years has been one big rubber-band. I slingshot from Soul to Soul, absorbing wisdom. Some I pass but then I fling around again. And it's those Souls that I seem to be learning the most from.

NOT from what they are doing right now, but what they've said or done in my recent past! Isn't that cool shit? God gives us opportunities to learn from people all the time. (Ask an elderly person to tell you something wise!) In my case, I feel like I am being given multiple passes at the same opportunities. Because all of the wisdom was already there (thank God I anally save emails:-)),  it just was not the right time.

___ Just did a Spirit Guide reading (Sonia Choqette was another transitory teacher.) and pulled "New Life - Divine Mother"...

"The wishes, dreams and desires you've carried in your heart are now gestating in the Divine womb and are coming into fruition. Whatever you seek to create, it's happening. The song in your heart will find its voice (WOW!); the poetry will be expressed. Even your professional goals will find a home in which to grow. The Divine Mother, the fertile aspect of the Divine feminine, is gracing your life (GRACE?) right now; and with her influence, your artistic and creative expression comes alive. She's here to loosen things up and get your creative juices flowing (juices - wink). Surrender your mind and and allow your soul to come alive in her embrace (Embrace your Grace?). She is with you, and her influence is powerful. Her message: 'New life is on its way.'"

Ok, so pretty appropriate - it is my energy that pulled that card.So the title "Full Circle" takes on a new purpose. I started this 3 day stream with the TV show Saving Grace. And I'm able to see how everything tied together to get the message from the Divine.

I'll end with this quote (Thx, Brian Johnson!): "Finding the center of strength within ourselves is, in the long run, the best contribution we can make to our fellow men." ~ Rollo May.

Amazing!

If you read yesterday's posts, you'll know the questions I threw out at the Universe. Today, I'm being led to the answers.

I want to teach? Get my wisdom out but don't know how? I've been writing so much here lately and I was tinkering with the settings and I clicked on something random and ended up at the FeedBurner site. It is broadcasting your blog! How to incorporate video podcasts into your blog... that's exactly what I suggested to Mary yesterday! More research needed!

Perhaps there's another lesson here as well. I keep trying to reach "OUT" to find people who can help me achieve the great things I feel are within me. And I'm discovering that those 'relationships' are very transitory in nature. There are definitely some keepers in the bunch though!

I think what I actually need to do, and it was yesterday's BIG lesson - trust what is happening. Today I was led to a site that can help me get my message out. I don't need to look to an outside person to help me, I simply have to look "WITHIN".For that is where the wisdom is and that is where my connection with God lies.

I truly believe that I was given this ENTJ personality just get over all the hurdles in my path! I am going to research how much FeedBurner costs - and then have Faith that I can afford it :-) 

Wisdom from a virtual stranger..

Added a new friend on Facebook just now. High school, but he graduated in '84 not '85. On his profile, he said this recently:

"if you look good, you feel good. if you feel good, you play good. if you play good enough, you make a lot of money."

Cool!

Quote from Saving Grace

Grace says, "I wanna bust the world wide open. The way you do when you're filled with YOU. I wanna engage with people, and fellow cops. I wanna be physical and I also want to ask the big questions. I wanna taste the tastes and fix the problems. I wanna run headlong into chaos and bad guys and darkness and pranks and fun and laugh, laugh, laugh. I want to be the best friend, and the greatest aunt and the most and the most complicated daughter. I want to be the 'mystery' in the room and I want to be known. Embrace your Grace!"

I found that profoundly meaningful. Now that's PASSION! Kudos to the writers of this show! And the advertising people who thought of that speech as an advertisement! It's brilliant!

Earl said, "Faith is the ticket to freedom."

And Tantra guy said, "for it is the ego of the individual that makes great change in this world."

I love this show!

Emerson quotes:

Well, at least the ones that resonate with me at this moment. I'm mindfully meditating again and I was led to Emerson. So let's see what kind of wisdom I can glean from these quotes!

"All I have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all I have not seen." 

I'm working on this one (trust), very actively, though.

" A friend is one before whom I may think aloud."

Again, very thankful to have Mary in my life! I needed to surround myself with like-minded people that "get" me.

"All our progress is an unfolding, like a vegetable bud. You have first an instinct, then an opinion, then a knowledge as the plant has root, bud, and fruit. Trust the instinct to the end, though you can render no reason."

Love that metaphor! I needed to hear this as I'm sitting here wondering which direction I'm supposed to go in. I know certain things by instinct, and I have to trust that it is the way I'm supposed to go.

I feel like if I don't teach, I will shrivel up and cease to be alive. And I mean metaphorically speaking as well. I'm so freakin' "alive" right now, it's approaching uncontrollable! I feel as if I have all this knowledge, all the common sense wisdom and I need to GET IT OUT! I need people in my life who can help me do that! Of course, my problem is with the waiting game. And thus the original Emerson quote that brought on this particular stream-of-consciousness:

"How much of human life is lost in waiting?"

So there! I don't feel so bad about wanting it NOW! And it fits with my ENTJ (The General) personality! I make up my mind that something needs to be done and I get it done. And I don't want to wait!

On that note, I went to go read an old email to the pen pal from 2005. I didn't find what I was looking for, but I found this:

"I made up my mind to STOP questioning and just accept the mystery. I decided that I was going to have faith and create the life I wanted."

I guess God thought I needed a reminder - LOL. I just have to laugh at how spot-on the instantaneous wisdom is! So, FINE! I'll stop pursuing my path at lightening speed and decrease it to a quick sprint - LOL!

And also contained in this letter was the story of how I 'ran' into Dr. Wayne Dyer by accident. And his message made complete sense to me and it was the catalyst that I needed to start this wonderful journey!

Ok, a few more of my favorite Emerson quotes:

"Beware when the great God lets loose a thinker on this planet."

"Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail"

"God enters by a private door into every individual."

"I awoke this morning with devout thanksgiving for my friends, the old and the new."

"I hate quotations. Tell me what you know."

And the grand-daddy of them all:

"None of us will ever accomplish anything excellent or commanding except when he listens to this whisper which is heard by him alone."

Mine's not a whisper though - it's an ear-piercing scream that I MUST teach. Intuitive Sonya Choquette told me that years ago and I didn't know WTF she was talking about. I've come a long way in 5 years!

Bring it on!

Holy crap, I've got homework to do!

And not for school. I was reading over at the Saving Grace blog and was led to research something a poster said. She said, "I thought this episode was fantastic. Her definition of sex was right on the money. I think it is a sacred union of the feminine and masculine divine when done right and brings a couple to the moment of creation. It is the Great Work, the heiros gamos, all of that."

I had to go Wikipedia "The Great Work". And I was led right back to where I was on my journey. More energy, more answers:

The Great Work (Latin: Magnum opus) is a term which originated in medieval European alchemywhich refers to the successful completion of the transmutation of base matter into goldor the creation of the philosopher's stone. It has subsequently been used as a metaphor for spiritual transformation in the Hermetic tradition. It has three stages:^[4]

• nigredo(-putrefactio), blackening(-putrefaction): individuation, purification, burnout of impureness; see also Suns in alchemy - Sol Niger
• albedo, whitening: spiritualisation, enlightenment
• rubedo, reddening: unification of man with god, unification of the limited with the unlimited.

So there's that "Individuation" thing again. I have to really study this to understand the stages I've been through and where I'm at now. All I can say about all the stages? Fuckin' WOW!

Earl had a great speech about The Infinite. Infinity has always been in my life - the symbol that is, the Lemniscate (I know that word because of another Angel - a story some other time). It's on the front page of this place; I wear a diamond lemniscate around my neck and never take it off. Flashback to high school: 9th grade English class with Mrs. Bangeter. The pen pal saw me doodling this sign-kind-of-a-thing (he sat behind me). He said he had a book on symbols and could tell me what they meant. (See why I crushed on him?) I told him I didn't know why I drew it, or chose those two, it just resonates with me. The two symbols? The lemnicate with a cross through the middle. My next piece of jewelry perhaps (I need a sugardaddy LMAO!).

So, like I said The Infinite has always been a part of my life, my psyche, my spirit. And I didn't believe the psychic lady at my birth mother's funeral who told me I was extremely religious - only she should have used the word 'spiritual' instead.

I truly believe that you can commune with God and "communicate". I always say, 'you have to ask the right questions' and have honest motivation to know the answers.

Back to the Universe...

I needed to relax so I opened myself up to vibrations this morning after work. The last 2 weeks, I've been constipated - spiritually, that is. I didn't go out with the girls last weekend and I'm thinking I probably should have - I should have been "bad".

I've finally acknowledged that my sexuality is one facet of my personality that needs to stay satisfied if I am to maintain being a complete happy person. I've had a 2 week dry spell in that area.

I was having a bit of online, innocent fun with the pen pal but that seems to have fizzled. I tried, and I'll wait (never patiently!), but in the meantime, I'M NOT HAVING ANY FUN, DAMMIT!! So... I got contipated.

Add hormones to that and you've got a lot of room for negative energy to enter! And the kids - no the youngest - God grant me patience! And work - and school starting and money and the business - CALGON TAKE ME AWAY!

I called my girlfriend and told her we HAVE to go out next weekend! And then, I sat down to watch this week's episode of Saving Grace.

It was all about Tantric Sex and open relationships. Very interesting - of course, there's a murder to be solved as well! So, Grace is studying up on Tantra and in pops her Angel "Earl". I'm going to try to quote his words as he is talking about Tantra, Hinduism and religion in general. It was awesome. And contained in it was my Angel's message for me concerning my sexuality. Just simple confirmation about the thoughts that were in my head. Energy attracting energy.

I just went to see if I could find the quotes in text and found this instead (about the show when it first came out and about the character of Grace):

"She's a whole person," Hunter said. "So in thinking about someone's sexuality, it's an integral part of who they are every day, every month, every year of their lives, and this is an integral part of the exploration that we're making of Grace."

BAM! Could it get any more obvious?

So, on to the "It's NOT wrong" topic...I have learned so much from this TV show! I was even just reminded that I'm a member at a blog called "Embrace your Grace" - and boy does that not tell me something! I need to embrace the parts of me that get me closer to God. Period.

Here's the episode in a nutshell (from the blog):

The Eastern tradition of Tantra helped shape this episode. When Grace meets William Drugh, the architect who incorporates Tantra principles into his life, Grace is immediately intrigued, inciting her to reflect on her own sexuality.

Inevitably, Grace ends up in a discussion with Earl about sex where she poetically explains sex is about sharing and coming alive—a creation between your partner and you. Rather than being judgmental and possibly surprising to some of you, Earl declares Grace’s description to be beautiful. “Maybe even what God had in mind when he created Adam and Eve.” Earl goes on to tell Grace, “God made you to search for the ones who lean into the table. The live ones. He gave you a big appetite girl. And sent me along to mix up the menu.” Earl’s conversation with Grace demonstrates how Grace and Earl’s relationship is evolving. He’s not condemning Grace for her voracious sexual appetite, but rather serving as her guide in this crazy human existence. What are your thoughts about where Grace and Earl’s relationship is headed? Do you prefer it when Earl appears to be more judgmental of Grace?

WOW! Can the Universe now send me one of those "LIVE" ones???? Or a few - wink, wink???? I am SO going out next weekend!!

And finally, what Earl says about sex and religion:

Grace asks him how he feels about sex. He says, "Well, I think it's a sacred gift. Grace says, "the Catholic church says that you can only open it to make babies." Earl says, "Not true. Lotta hogwash out there about sex and religion. Not one major religion thinks sex is bad. But some Eastern beliefs view sex as a way of getting closer to the Divine." He asks Grace what she thinks about sex:

Grace answers, "You're alive! You feel your blood get hot, everything gets hot and you come alive. And you share that - you give that to your partner and you receive it and FEEL it. And this moment is a creation between the two of you."

 Earl thought that was beautiful. So do I. Earl says, "maybe THAT's what God had in mind when he made Adam and Eve." 

Sex is a great way to get closer to God - I just need to find one of those damn "LIVE" ones! I am SO going out this weekend!

____Time out on the stream of consciousness____

 

I must have needed more wisdom, because there was a plaque on the wall of the massage room in the TV show (I finally made it back to watch it). The plaque said, "the Individual IS God".

I have fully embraced my weirdness and uniqueness but I still spend time trying to find others like me. The current lesson is not only to celebrate the weirdness, but celebrate every single aspect of it!

Cleaning house...

I only have 2 weeks off school and a lot of projects to complete. This wasn't necessarily on my 'To-Do' list but a distraction led me to do and I'm very glad I did.

I began with cleaning my Yahoo Messenger contacts. People I haven't chatted with in a long time (years for some) - gone. Next I moved onto my email address books. Gave them a good cleaning. Next were my email folders.

I'm an organization freak so every person that I've ever had multiple emails with has their own folder with all correspondence. If it's in my regular email, I forward it to my Yahoo Mail so I know it will always be there - anal? YES! So, I started with Yahoo folders.

I completely got rid of one folder that had over 15 letters in it (although I did have to save some of the racier stories we exchanged!). I moved to the next person with no intention of deleting any of them because he is still in  my life though very much on the sideline. I started reading some of our early correspondence.

As he and I were getting to know each other, I had an instant comfort level that allowed us to reveal our deepest thoughts about ourselves and our world. I was amazed to realize that I knew myself pretty well back in 2005 only I just didn't know it. I always seemed to be searching for some elusive 'thing' that would give me great insight into myself.

Have I changed in the last 4 years? YES! But those thoughts and aspects of myself that I revealed back then are still there, I've just become much more comfortable with them and I no longer question them.

No, a person should not spend their present looking into their past, but it is nice to look back and not only see how far you've come but to see that you maybe didn't have that far to go to begin with!

More cleaning tomorrow night at work!

ENTJ - this is interesting...

"Sexually, the ENTJ is robust, imaginative and enthusiastic. Their natural instinct to lead will be apparent in this arena as well as other areas of life, and they will lead their partner on creative lovemaking adventures, where the focus is on mutual learning and affection sharing. They're likely to expect sex on a relatively scheduled basis."

VERY TRUE!! This is one area where my creativity really comes alive and I nurture that, trust me!

Beautiful description of 'change'...

"[Real transformation] must go deeper. Lasting transformation must call forth the image of God latent in each of us, bringing it to incarnation in our lives, giving concrete expression to the absolutely unique and unrepeatable glimmer of divinity that each of us is called to be."

From the penpal a while back. I am actively, and lastingly, transforming as I write this.

So, this whole "change" thing has me thinkin' (uh-oh). A Guide told me recently that a huge change was occurring in my life and I believe that wholeheartedly. I am learning so much about myself and my place in the world. About how I can draw forth what's inside of me to help others. And then I went and found this:

"The individuation process is a term created by the famous psychologist Carl Gustav Jung to describe the process of becoming aware of oneself, of one’s make-up, and the way to discover one’s true, inner self." "The unconscious tries to bring man back into balance." "These unconscious tendencies can be stronger than our conscious, and can even go against our will

I spent years getting to know the why's and where's of all the dirty unconscious damage I had (not even aware that I had been living my entire life unnconsciously), a year making excuses for it,  and then I went looking back to events in my past that affected who I am and what was the lesson I was supposed to learn? It wasn't always a fun or painless process but it had to be done and it was worth it. I think this was the getting to know The Shadow in the Individuation process.

 That was the beginning of the transformation. Because that led to understanding and forgiveness, which then led to a deeper understanding of myself. I realized I had absolutely no reason NOT to have healthy self esteem. From that simple realization, I started to grow by leaps and bounds with occasional stalls. But no more. Because I've developed a much deeper comprehension and appreciation for who I am and what I can offer others to help them.

Going to go research more on the process..

ENTJ Personality type on Personal Growth..

There were few items on the list that I didn't say "yep" to here. My weaknesses - it all makes sense. I've worked on a lot of them and think I am in the process of balancing my Introverted Intuition with my Extraverted Thinking. It's why I cherish my alone time - my meditative time. Synchronicity helps me a great deal with that! I'm definitely working on the Judging think and learning how to see other people's views and accept the differences. There is a ton of wisdom in these words about my personal growth journey.

What does Success mean to an ENTJ?

ENTJ people are realists, in the most basic sense of the word. Not only because their thinking is based upon a clear view of how things actually are in the world around them, but also because their ideas and strategies are structured around those unambiguous, “down to earth”, commonsense beliefs which sum up the obvious and undeniable in life. But while ENTJ’s might be pragmatic about the immediate situation before them, they are scarcely satisfied with it until it can be made more productive, useful or valuable. The ENTJ’s reasoning on such matters is always clear and generally unemotional. If action can improve an item or a situation then it ought to be taken, and the ENTJ will always be found in the midst of such action, organizing, planning and leading the way forward until the best result possible has been realized. This makes success for an ENTJ something that can be clearly seen, a real world result which can be measured. And whether measured in dollars, bricks, bread or just happy people, the successful ENTJ knows the result is due to their belief that it is just plain commonsense to try and make the best of every situation and get the most out if it for the most people. 

Allowing Your ENTJ Strengths to Flourish

As an ENTJ, you have gifts that are specific to your personality type that aren't natural strengths for other types. By recognizing your special gifts and encouraging their growth and development, you will more readily see your place in the world, and be more content with your role. Nearly all ENTJs will recognize the following characteristics in themselves. They should embrace and nourish these strengths:

·        Able to cut straight to the chase in any situation and not be sidetracked by non-essential issues.

·        A propensity for leadership which follows naturally from their ability to control and manage real time/real world situations.

·        A talent for factual analysis unbiased by prejudice or emotion.

·        A “can do” approach to life which makes the working environment a positive place for them.

·        A strong regard for positive social and economic institutions, structure and government.

·        Second to none time and space management skills, everything organized and in its place.

·        Able to constantly synthesize and adapt new ideas and concepts into strategies for business, social, financial or environmental development.

ENTJ’s who have a well-developed Introverted Intuitive function to complement their dominant Extraverted Thinking will enjoy these very special gifts:

·        A talent for creating great benefits through the addressing of social justice issues.

·        The ability to recognize and mediate their potentials in accord with the expectations of others.

·        An approach to life which includes an awareness of the differences between their needs and those of others.

·        Able to know when to stop and take stock of life and recognize the qualities of the moment.

·        A talent for showing others the way to get past difficulties in their outer life

·        A broadening of their own ambitions which includes rather than excludes others from the decision making and the benefits which flow from their achievement.

Potential Problem Areas

With any gift of strength, there is an associated weakness. Without "bad", there would be no "good". Without "difficult", there would be no "easy". We value our strengths, but we often curse and ignore our weaknesses. To grow as a person and get what we want out of life, we must not only capitalize upon our strengths, but also face our weaknesses and deal with them. That means taking a hard look at our personality type's potential problem areas.

ENTJ’s are strong, right minded and rational people. This should be kept in mind as you read some of the more negative material about ENTJ weaknesses. These weaknesses are natural. We offer this information to enact positive change, rather than as blatant criticism.

Most of the weaker characteristics in the ENTJ stem from their dominant Extraverted Thinking function overtaking their personality, stifling the natural expression and balancing value of the other personality functions. In such cases, an ENTJ may show some or all of the following weaknesses in varying degrees:

·        May be unable to understand other people’s needs where these differ from their own.

·        May unwisely assume their ideas are the only right ones and are therefore being fully implemented by others.

·        May become childishly petulant or angered when confronted by situations which require feeling judgments.

·        May become so engrossed in a plan or ambition that personal needs and the needs of others are forgotten.

·        May take every decision not made in agreement with their rational beliefs as a personal rejection.

·        May be easily taken in or manipulated by others via agreement with their rational attitudes.

·        May become obsessed with small obstructions and difficulties to the point where the overall plan is forgotten

·        May believe natural limitations are actually ailments which ought to be eradicated

·        May assume others are ever plotting against them.

·        May  believe only their own view of the world or a situation is correct, even to the point that they make it into a kind of dogma which must be followed by those around them.

Explanation of Problems

Most of the problems described above can be seen as a direct result of a too dominant Extraverted Thinking function ruling the personality. In most cases this is exactly what is happening, but it is also worth recognizing that some of the weaknesses in the ENTJ’s personality that are more apparent to other Types, flow not so much from the excesses of the ENTJ’s dominant function, but from the natural inferiority of their feeling function and its lack of adaptation. We must also recognize that the level of expression of all functions in all people is variable and that some of the problems discussed here apply only to strongly expressing ENTJ’s, where the attitude which flows from using Extraverted Thinking exclusively to guide them through life creates its own particular problems.

The over dominance of Extraverted Thinking leads to an intensely intellectual way of seeing the world, where values such as right and wrong, good and bad, useful and useless are judged only by their applicability to an almost mathematically exact - and to the ENTJ - always rational, attitude to life. Without the balance provided by other ways of seeing or judging, the ENTJ is unable to account for actions based upon the inner views or feeling behavior of others, hence such things are always judged negatively, either as irrelevant - or at best - as being of small consequence. Additionally, with their thinking attitude always turned outward and totally subject to the world beyond their senses, without the balance of some internally felt objectivity the ENTJ will often follow their ideas and ambitions without consideration for their own physical and emotional needs. Indeed, the ENTJ often feels that if only his project, his work, his outer reality would just fall into line with his own rational views then all would be well within his world and all his needs would be met. Unfortunately such an attitude can never be satisfied, for the world is not only rational, but also full of situations and human behavior which must be appreciated and understood by quite different, and again - to the ENTJ – often seemingly absurd criteria.  

A healthy personality needs to have a good balance between its dominant and auxiliary functions. For an ENTJ, dominant Extraverted Thinking needs to be well-supported by their auxiliary Introverted Intuitive function. If Introverted Intuition exists only to support the intellectual rationale created by Extraverted Thinking, then neither function is being used to its full potential.

Introverted Intuition is the ENTJ’s access to their inner world, to the information that could tell them how the world is affecting them. Because it is introverted, its images arise from the subjective depths of the mind, and contain all that the ENTJ has not considered within their strictly rational and object oriented view of the world. Introverted Intuition provides the personally biased information the ENTJ needs to balance this world view and protect the ENTJ from being totally swallowed up by their selfless and yet single minded attachment to facts, figures and a rationale they accept only from the world outside themselves. Because this inner information is often opposed to the ENTJ’s strongly held ideas it is often rejected, or if accepted, turned outward to make negative judgments about external situations or the behavior of others, rather than seen as a corrective balance to the ENTJ’s own attitudes and behavior.

Solutions

To grow as an individual, the ENTJ needs to recognize the role Intuition plays in their life, and learn to understand its language. In particular the ENTJ needs to realize that their intuitive function is not directed outward to the world, that its images are personal, subjective and relate directly to the way the ENTJ’s inner self is being affected by both the outside world and their own behavior.

Introverted Intuition is not an obvious process to understand, and quite unlike the rational, straightforward thinking the ENTJ is used to. Nevertheless, if understood and fully utilized to support thinking, it can make the ENTJ the most outwardly effective and productive of all the personality types. For this reason it is essential to allow this gift to become what it can be, rather than limiting its talents and allowing it only to speak when it seems to agree with the ENTJ’s outwardly focused thinking. Below are a few specific suggestions to help you apply Introverted Intuition.

·        When confronted by a situation which requires an important decision, try to put it off for long enough to be able to sit quietly with it. In doing so allow yourself to feel and see the images which arise in your mind regarding this situation. Try to set aside those which appear immediately as the products of your own beliefs and thinking, and regard the others closely. If these images and ideas were the opinions of people whose judgment you trusted implicitly, try to question them in your mind and find the reasons why they consider things in such a way.

·        There are some people around you who always seem to know just which way to go or how things work or what the outcome of a certain situation will be without them seeming to have sufficient information to be able to do so. These people are intuitive types and their world is full of possibilities which they can immediately recognize as apt to certain situations. You also have this talent, but you have a habit of not following it, rather you prefer to think it out and find the options which “ought” to be correct. I placed ought in quotes for a very good reason here, for you know yourself how often things have developed in the direction you had an inkling of, but refused to accept without thinking. Try to let these immediate impressions have their moment and recognize them as true possibilities which ought to be examined more closely. Understand that they are not baseless images and ideas but rely upon valid sources of information which you simply screen out of your life by habit. 

Living Happily in our World as an ENTJ

Some ENTJs have difficulty fitting into our society. Their problems are generally associated with a strongly dogmatic and overly rational approach to life, coupled with an almost total lack of ability to understand the needs of others. Where such a strongly expressing difficulty arises, the ENTJ finds themselves constantly embattled by a world which refuses to conform to their ideals and creates situations in which the ENTJ is out of their depth. Such situations are often met by the ENTJ with such a childish emotionality that others are put off and isolate the ENTJ emotionally. Such ENTJ’s often find themselves without friends, and with business partners or employees who are unwilling to engage the ENTJ upon any matter other than strictly task related questions. Such behavior in others only serves to bring out underlying sentiments in the ENTJ which, via their badly adapted intuitive function, speak to them of plots, nastiness and covert obstructive behavior on the part of others. Suffice to say, such suspicions and childish sentiments coupled with dogmatic demands to conform to the ENTJ’s own way of seeing the world can soon destroy families and close relationships.

It is incumbent upon the ENTJ to break the circle of such behavior by allowing their Introverted Intuition a place in their life. Through attention to this function the ENTJ can discover a path to understanding and recognizing the effects not only their own behavior has upon others, but also the greater possibilities which lie within themselves for not only a harmonious relationship with others, but also a greater sense of what might be best for themselves.

Understanding the feeling needs and judgments of others is not an easy task for the ENTJ, but through their Intuitive function they can find images and ideas which - whilst not speaking directly to the feeling judgments of others – might allow them to see outside the strictly rational circle of their world view in such a way as to recognize that there is indeed a different perspective which must be taken account of.

Ten Rules to Live By to Achieve ENTJ Success

1.     Feed Your Strengths! Give yourself every opportunity to show others your appreciation of a situation and how you could see it through to a good outcome. Take charge where you can make it count.

2.     Face Your Weaknesses! Understand you have limits too. Your careful world view is not the whole deal. How things look and feel may not concern you, but they concern many others. Try and allow such things to be and learn from them.

3.     Talk Time to Find Out How Others Really Think. You need to drive past your thoughts with others and let their appreciations of a situation reach you at a deeper level. It will then be possible for you to take account of their needs as real world objectives which if included in your ideas will bring greater harmony and quality to life and relationships.

4.      Take Time Out To Let The Whole Situation Speak To You. Don't dismiss those abstract and seemingly hard to understand or bothersome aesthetic and feeling judgments coming from others or from inside yourself. Drop everything for a while, stop thinking and worrying and just relax into those ideas and let them speak to you. Perhaps they can be accommodated, perhaps something is hiding in there which offers a new way

5.     When You Get Upset, You Lose. Your energy and rational understandings are strong assets, but can be very harmful if they turn against you and leave you with nothing but emotions you cannot deal with. Remember that others cannot always be expected to fall into your ways of seeing, and when your drive to make them do so fails you will suffer feelings of resentment and even abandonment. You cannot deal with the world like this. Moderate your ideas, allow others their spaces, and you will grow.

6.      Respect your Need for Intellectual Compatibility Don't expect yourself to be a "touchy-feely" or "warm-fuzzy" person. Realize that your most ardent bonds with others will start with the head, rather than the heart. Be aware of other's emotional needs, and express your genuine love and respect for them in terms that are real to YOU. Be yourself.

7.     Be Accountable for Yourself. Don't blame the problems in your life on other people. Look inwardly for solutions. No one has more control over your life than you have.

8.     Be Humble. Judge yourself at least as harshly as you judge others.

9.     Take a Positive Approach to Differences in People. Don't distress yourself and others by dwelling on what seem to be their limitations. They need you to guide them and you need them to see things through. Try and recognize who can perform the most ably within certain fields outside your own competence. Let the feelings of others become a strength rather than a hindrance to you.

10. Don't Get Obsessed! Recognize the value that personal world has to you, your friends, your family, your own inner selnse of self worth and life. Take pride in just being a good person and don’t allow external situations to control you. Try to relax and let the moment belong to the best things you can find in others and yourself. Nothing out there is more important than your own happiness.

On telling my story..

A part of another article at Conversations with Master Jesus and Buddha: MJ is Master Jesus, TM is the author of the blog.

MJ: It's time to risk a new story.  I think you already have, but you're not sure whether or not you want to tell it.  What if you're wrong, right?  Then you've duped yourself and everyone else who believed you.  I've told it and others have told it.  It gets changed a little here and there so that it looks more like the old story to make it more comfortable for everyone.  So, I'll tell it again.

TM: Please do.  I'm willing to listen.  Is this going to answer my original question about loneliness?

MJ: Yes, and more.  Love is all there is in this universe. It is the meta-state.  Every other state of emotion you experience is either a reflection of love, or it is a state you have individually and collectively created in order to experience that which isn't love. Evil is the creation of humanity and is unreal.  It appears real because you believe it is as part of your collective agreement to do so.

You experience life one moment at a time on Earth.  You experience life on more than the Earth dimension.  The meta-state of love is on all dimensions.  You create within the realm of Earth during your incarnation here.  Your creation does not extend beyond this dimension.  You can choose to create with love or you can choose to create with that which is not love.  At the point when your creation is purely from love then your boundary of creation will expand.  That is the moment we are all waiting and working for.

The challenge of humanity is to synthesize all that is in your human nature with all that is in your spiritual nature.  Love is in both and will temper the fusion.  Give up your addiction to your own creation when it isn't in alignment with love.

Integration and disintegration...

I visited Conversations with Jesus and Buddha just now and was browsing through posts. This one makes so much sense to me at this point in my life. I think the lessons from this morning were the spiritual 'wrecking ball' that I needed to understand how to integrate my personality and psychology with my spirit. I am soooo done with that cycle - it's exhausting and frustrating. I am truly ready to move forward and all that has happened in the recent year and that is currently happening is about doing just that. And as I'm thinking this very thought, the songs "Changes in Latitudes" and "It's Been a Long Time Coming" come on. "with all of these changes.." and "a change is gonna come.." (player is shuffling through 4000 songs!)

Integration and Disintegration

TM:  I feel like for many years I have tried to integrate my human self with my spiritual self.  At times I feel I have reached some measure of success only to witness set backs in the form of failures in my life—failures to live purely in my convictions, or failures in relationships, etc.  How can we feel one moment in the complete bliss of integration and then later as if things have become unraveled?

Master Buddha:  There is a natural progression toward integration that includes disintegration.  It’s the same as when you try to affix one object to another and the seal is not set just right.  Maybe there is debris mixed in the seal.  Maybe there are gaps in the seal.  Whether it’s obstruction or space, the seal is not complete and can be easily pried apart with the least amount of stress to one of the objects.  Your human personality and your spirit work in a similar fashion.

Once you are inspired and begin to inquire about your spiritual nature you begin to receive information about spirit.  You begin to look at your human life through a new filter.  You begin to question your life and its meaning.  This is the beginning of integration.

Recognize what is happening even in this beginning.  There is a natural disintegration of your human personality, that is, due to new, incoming information from spirit your personality begins to fragment and parts begin to modify.  Some parts you may let go—destruction.  Some parts you may transform.  But what was before is no longer the same.  Disintegration within the personality has occurred.  At the same time, integration has begun between spirit and personality.  However minute that may be, it is an integration.

There is a series of cycles of integration and disintegration that occurs.  This may go on for a period of time until the tension resolves and you conclude that you have settled on a point of integration.  That is what you describe as the point of bliss.

That state persists for some time until there is a crisis, which disturbs that state.  New tension is created and you begin the cycle of disintegration—the tension must be resolved.  Suddenly you may realize that all the beliefs you adopted in your quest for spiritual alignment where somehow off.  You shed them as a snake sheds his skin.  Now you are disintegrating your spiritual concepts.

The process is one by which personality disintegrates, spirit disintegrates, the combination of the two in relationship disintegrates and then it begins a new cycle of integration.

TM:  So when do we know we’ve reached the final point of integration?  How long will this go on?  It’s tiring and almost maddening.

MB:  It is no different really that my opening example.  It continues until you have properly removed the debris or space between the two objects of integration.

TM:  Won’t there always be things we can’t or don’t know about ourselves, personally or spiritually?

MB:  This is the great challenge of enlightenment—when do you reach that point?  Who can know, perhaps one who is fully enlightened?  But how do you know who that is if you are not fully enlightened yourself?  Is that not the basis of faith?  Faith covers the gap between what you know to be true and what you don’t know.  It is the motivation to continue, because you believe in the process.

TM:  Makes me want to give up at times and say this is bogus, a waste of time.

MB:  Yes, and for a while you might do that.  That’s a point of disintegration between your personality and your spiritual self.  When faith or belief in the process can't be the salve to satisfy the tension, then abandonment is a choice.  That’s natural.

TM:  So, that happens, then what?  Why would I get on the treadmill again?

MB:  You may not.  You may decide to live from the perspective that your personality is all there is.  That the state of personality is all there is for everybody and that is your world.  You may find some new evidence that pushes you back into inquiry, which starts the cycle of integration and disintegration again.

TM:  I’ve done both of those things.  It’s wearing me out.

MB:  Yet it continues.  So, something within you pushes through the haze and says try again.  What pushes?

TM:  I don’t know, something happens and it starts again.  Maybe I should pay attention, but it seems like before I know it I’m inquiring again.

MB:  Well, let that be a mystery for now.  As you progress through the cycle maybe that is revealed for you.  Then it will be okay for a while until something else happens to disturb it.

TM:  So, basically you’re saying that it is a struggle forever and I’ll either engage the process or I won’t.

MB:  I’m not saying it’s a struggle forever.  I’m saying that it’s a struggle for as long as it is and that it doesn’t really matter how long it takes.  Until such time that your spiritual self can tap into its essence within your personality and transmute it into a reflection of spirit, you will go through various stages of integration and disintegration.  Your impatience may serve you to keep trying or it may persuade you to abandon the process.  Your choice.

TM:  Yeah, I always come back.

MB:  One simple truth is that you don’t really have a choice in the long run.  You can abandon the process for a while or you can push too hard and feel frustrated.  But your spiritual self is never dormant or absent.  Spirit isn’t time-constrained, as is your personality.  And that may be something you have to take upon faith.  Maybe you already accept that, but have to just not think about it for a while.  It doesn’t matter.  You will eventually resume the cycle.  That is the natural order of life on earth.

TM:  I feel like for many years I have tried to integrate my human self with my spiritual self.  At times I feel I have reached some measure of success only to witness set backs in the form of failures in my life—failures to live purely in my convictions, or failures in relationships, etc.  How can we feel one moment in the complete bliss of integration and then later as if things have become unraveled?

Master Buddha:  There is a natural progression toward integration that includes disintegration.  It’s the same as when you try to affix one object to another and the seal is not set just right.  Maybe there is debris mixed in the seal.  Maybe there are gaps in the seal.  Whether it’s obstruction or space, the seal is not complete and can be easily pried apart with the least amount of stress to one of the objects.  Your human personality and your spirit work in a similar fashion.

Once you are inspired and begin to inquire about your spiritual nature you begin to receive information about spirit.  You begin to look at your human life through a new filter.  You begin to question your life and its meaning.  This is the beginning of integration.

Recognize what is happening even in this beginning.  There is a natural disintegration of your human personality, that is, due to new, incoming information from spirit your personality begins to fragment and parts begin to modify.  Some parts you may let go—destruction.  Some parts you may transform.  But what was before is no longer the same.  Disintegration within the personality has occurred.  At the same time, integration has begun between spirit and personality.  However minute that may be, it is an integration.

There is a series of cycles of integration and disintegration that occurs.  This may go on for a period of time until the tension resolves and you conclude that you have settled on a point of integration.  That is what you describe as the point of bliss.

That state persists for some time until there is a crisis, which disturbs that state.  New tension is created and you begin the cycle of disintegration—the tension must be resolved.  Suddenly you may realize that all the beliefs you adopted in your quest for spiritual alignment where somehow off.  You shed them as a snake sheds his skin.  Now you are disintegrating your spiritual concepts.

The process is one by which personality disintegrates, spirit disintegrates, the combination of the two in relationship disintegrates and then it begins a new cycle of integration.

TM:  So when do we know we’ve reached the final point of integration?  How long will this go on?  It’s tiring and almost maddening.

MB:  It is no different really that my opening example.  It continues until you have properly removed the debris or space between the two objects of integration.

TM:  Won’t there always be things we can’t or don’t know about ourselves, personally or spiritually?

MB:  This is the great challenge of enlightenment—when do you reach that point?  Who can know, perhaps one who is fully enlightened?  But how do you know who that is if you are not fully enlightened yourself?  Is that not the basis of faith?  Faith covers the gap between what you know to be true and what you don’t know.  It is the motivation to continue, because you believe in the process.

TM:  Makes me want to give up at times and say this is bogus, a waste of time.

MB:  Yes, and for a while you might do that.  That’s a point of disintegration between your personality and your spiritual self.  When faith or belief in the process can't be the salve to satisfy the tension, then abandonment is a choice.  That’s natural.

TM:  So, that happens, then what?  Why would I get on the treadmill again?

MB:  You may not.  You may decide to live from the perspective that your personality is all there is.  That the state of personality is all there is for everybody and that is your world.  You may find some new evidence that pushes you back into inquiry, which starts the cycle of integration and disintegration again.

TM:  I’ve done both of those things.  It’s wearing me out.

MB:  Yet it continues.  So, something within you pushes through the haze and says try again.  What pushes?

TM:  I don’t know, something happens and it starts again.  Maybe I should pay attention, but it seems like before I know it I’m inquiring again.

MB:  Well, let that be a mystery for now.  As you progress through the cycle maybe that is revealed for you.  Then it will be okay for a while until something else happens to disturb it.

TM:  So, basically you’re saying that it is a struggle forever and I’ll either engage the process or I won’t.

MB:  I’m not saying it’s a struggle forever.  I’m saying that it’s a struggle for as long as it is and that it doesn’t really matter how long it takes.  Until such time that your spiritual self can tap into its essence within your personality and transmute it into a reflection of spirit, you will go through various stages of integration and disintegration.  Your impatience may serve you to keep trying or it may persuade you to abandon the process.  Your choice.

TM:  Yeah, I always come back.

MB:  One simple truth is that you don’t really have a choice in the long run.  You can abandon the process for a while or you can push too hard and feel frustrated.  But your spiritual self is never dormant or absent.  Spirit isn’t time-constrained, as is your personality.  And that may be something you have to take upon faith.  Maybe you already accept that, but have to just not think about it for a while.  It doesn’t matter.  You will eventually resume the cycle.  That is the natural order of life on earth.

This moment's wisdom :-)

I just got my daily message from the Unity Church: Fitting or what?

Saturday, March 14, 2009 – Change

"Without change, something sleeps inside us, and seldom awakens. The sleeper must awaken." ~Frank Herbert

Today's Affirmation

I embrace change easily and without fear.

Today's Meditation

Dear God, Everything is evolving, unfolding and becoming. My life is not the same as it was yesterday, and thank You it will not be the same tomorrow. I move from good to greater good. Conditions in the outer world may change, but Your presence is constant and sure. Amen

Quotable from Mary...

"I'm not worried about MY journey, I want them to take me on THEIR journey!"

And hopefully, learning from the echoes of wisdom!

Now, you can imagine this drives me a little bit berzerk!!

Moving on in Matthew 5...

Verses 25 through 48 all made me realize that to finally let the financial bullshit go with my ex-husband. He's got it tough. He will not see the lessons in this life and I can't force him to. He hates me. I have to let it go or it will just hold me back.

I will stop hounding him. Or making him feel like I am. I will try, really hard not to think negative thoughts about his stupid ass (oops!). KIDDING! Time to cast from my life things that no longer propel me forward!

This is where I was led...

This is HUGE. Like I said I was at work. I was busy and actually wasn't online when I did have a free minute or two! I was enthralled with reading the literature I received in the mail from the college I want to attend for my PhD (see previous post). I was so excited and had such a feeling of 'oneness' with my journey. With God, you could say. So, I was in the right frame of mind to be 'led' - only I didn't realize it at the time.

Then I got online and pulled up some old correspondence from an interesting person in my life. There was one particular letter from him in response to my frustration with a very judgemental chaplain who was telling gay people they would be condemned to hellfire and eternal damnation. In his letter, he directly referred to Matthew 5:22 in the Bible. I made a note to go and look when I got home.

I got home, (made an after-work drink) and got my Bible out. I couldn't get the gist of that verse so I started off at the beginning of Matthew 5.

Lo and behold, a voice inside said, "You've been led to the beatitudes. Not even knowing if that was correct until I Googled it. I actually remember something from Catholic school!!The further I read, the more meaning I got from every verse. But before I give my interpretation of each, I have to tell you about a short distraction that gave me ideas about my journey...

In this same letter, my pen-pal mentioned that he is an INFP personality type. That made me want to investigate. I found a site that allows you to make a personality profile based on more than just the MBTI. So I played around a bit. I was almost apprehensive to re-take the MBTI test for fear that I would, once again, type as something other than an ENTJ. That was a confusing time in my life and I'm more ME now. So I retook it and thankfully, I still type as an ENTJ, perhaps not as rigid as I used to be. This has relevance to my ideas about the meaning of Matthew 5.

Once I recognized the beatitudes, I stopped and thought about how much I miss just reading the Bible. Screw the fiction book I've got waiting (it's been waiting a long time), this was FUN! I always did enjoy Bible study in the second foster home. AHA - another piece to the puzzle that is ME!

And on we go....

Matthew 5:14-18 -- "Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid. Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is heaven."

Where to begin! At verse 15, I got distracted by thoughts about the college, the message, and the corresponding psychology behind what I believe to be Soul age (another post). Instantly the MBTI popped into my head and I saw the correlation between that verse and my personality type and that college! I SO belong there! And I WILL get there! Watch me. I'm an ENTJ afterall, when I put my mind to something... and now my Soul??? It's a done deal. Lately I'm flying through completions though. See my post about Mary explaining my speed to me.

WHOA! Deep distraction jumping in here (time for another color change)! LOL - LIVE and in color - evolution, or Soulvolution as I call it, happening right now!

 I just read the verse 'and glorify your Father which is in heaven'. Finally, once and for all, accepting and understanding that Jesus Christ is my Master Teacher. Finding that blog last weekend that put all my beliefs into concise language for me was priceless! This led to a cartharsis of sorts because I can't believe I danced around it for so long. I still do on a 'language' level but I'm getting better. I need to really stop worrying about what other people might think or what their reactions will be and stand up for what I believe and know to be true. Matthew 5 also speaks of this.

I just got distracted thinking about my name. I told Mary about the time I asked to know the name(s) of my Guides and all the Synchronicity around me pointed to the name "Christine". Perhaps I am my best teacher! After finding out my birth father (there's some great genes!) wanted to name me Eunice, I suddenly liked my name! My mother probably had to get physically violent with him to name me what she wanted. I choose to believe (there's that dancing language again) that it was for a reason. 

Next deep thought: Mary told me that perhaps one of my final lessons in this sprint to the finish line  is to start considering what my purpose is in other people's lives. But it still comes back to me. Because when I learn a lesson, I can then teach others. I always said I was a sponge (Mary called me a sucuubus)!

And then she and I 'debate' whether being 'all about me' is a negative thing. The psychologist in me screams, "Narcisist"!! And the analytical side of me is yelling, "ENTJ" - it's all about being The General. And I realize these are just my excuses. If I just let myself feel it, I know it's a positive thing. I'm learning that a lot of what's holding me back on my journey has to do with the way I PERCEIVE things and the constant need to make everything bad or good, black or white. This is a topic I mentioned to the penpal the other day.

Mary has come into my life to remind me NOT to put "spin" on every single thing that happens. Yes, there's meaning behind it and lessons to be learned from everything but don't inject negativity into something completely neutral!

Mary understands these Soul types - the ones who are 'all about me'. She attracts them into her life (she's gotta figure out how I fit into her life - I'm too damn busy with ME) [God, I hope that came across as sarcastic and funny!] because she can keep up with them.  

New deep thought (back to the Bible in a minute or seven): maybe, based on MBTI, I "need" to analyze things in order to evolve? God knows, as crazy as it drives me to not have 'definition' in my life on certain issues, I know it's about the journey not the destination. But it still drives me FREAKIN' BATTY! And I think a part of me needs that for motivation. Afterall, I did ask for an ass-kicker a while back...someone who will motivate me (watch less TV). I wasn't specific on the "how" so I didn't know where it would come from. (Mantra: don't know, don't need to know.) For me and my personality, motivation ALL comes down to stimulation. All facets of my personality have to be satisfied so that I can stay 'in tune' with that part of God in me. The part that talks to me when I'm quiet. (Hard to believe I actually can be quiet,  but only if I'm alone with my thoughts and feelings and the phone doesn't keep ringing at work!)

And now, back to our regularly scheduled program.

Onto the whole "Teacher" thing and Matthew 5:14 and 15. I know to the bottom of my Soul  that I was put in (I chose) this lifetime to teach. I'm discovering that I want people to be interested in my journey because perhaps if they can read or hear about their purpose in MY life, they might get clues as to what THEIR true purpose in this lifetime. Perhaps my true purpose is to help other Souls find their true purpose. It's all about reading the clues that are already there - and following where they lead you, and then sharing the message and the lessons learned.

And this led me to think about Dr. Wayne Dyer. The greatest teacher and probably one of the firsts on many levels. (I AM going to write that long-delayed letter to him!) Thoughts went to that college, and the mandatory internship. I thought about ENTJ. I welcome the Soul acknowledgement that I belong in front of a crowd. I haven't made up my mind on it yet, but how cool would it be to do my internship as Wayne Dyer's apprentice? What the hell? Why not? (Do not dare me - DO actually dare me, that ensures I'll do it!) Would that not be an avenue to allow my teaching light to shine? I've got a long way to go, but I feel like I am not meant to "teach" one person at a time. We'll see where what happens....

Taking a break now.

Funny the way the little things work...

I was being led even while I was at work but that's a BIG thing, not for this post.

For the past 3 months I've been thinking that I need to become less addicted to TV - to find a better outlet through which to be "led". In the past, all the Synchronicity in my life has occurred through that medium because I spent a lot of time watching TV and movies.

So anyway, the last 3 weeks I just haven't been interested as much. My DVR is getting full! But I would rather be online learning and being 'led'.

I put that energy out there in my thoughts and I've attracted something into my life to give me exactly what I needed. A distraction of epic proportion!

The Journey continues....

Done with school for 2 weeks!

I just about had a panic attack over my last final. I just got the grade. I only needed a 145/180 to keep a 93% in the class. I got a 180!! I don't even want to think about school or books or reading for 2 weeks!